Spiders
That's normal, though
Having the ones I love betray me.
I always blame myself.
Being stuck with half my face in water and being immobilized.
The one thing that is keeping me alive kills me
When I feel lonely
I cry myself to sleep
When no one shows up to the class I teach
I tell myself that they all hate me and that's why they don't come
When I feel like everyone hates me, but I know they don't.
*I want to tell someone, but I can't put it into words.