More tortuous than anything is the human heart, beyond remedy; who can understand it?* "The heart always wants what is good of course, But sometimes we do not know what is good, Only that our heart wants it, and it ends up Not being what God wanted for us, Or what was good for us, and it causes the most pain The human heart is truly a mystery" ~Mr Reed
God directly answered me, I literally asked Him right before, and this spoke like no other.