I wish bawling my eyes out eased the pain
and I also wish my parents would stop asking me whats wrong when they already know
and I wish I could stop crying everynight
and I wish I wasn't suicidal
and I wish I was good enough for the only person I love
and I wish you loved me back
and I wish writing this poem right now wasn't the only thing stopping me from killing myself

but I looked into your eyes tonight
and I hope you saw it
but I know you're blind

im broken, you broke me

you told me the things I made for you meant absolutely nothing anymore.
I spent days on that
days.
and when you said that
I walked away
hoping you would chase me
or hit me with your car to put me out of my misery
but no, you didn't

and I wish you ******* cared about me
then maybe I would think my life is worth living....
and maybe I could go to bed at night without wanting to take my life

I just wanted you to ask me to stay
so I could be happy, be sane, stay a good person

but now that I know you don't care for me
why does it matter if I **** someone?
why does it matter if I do **** with a million boys
doesn't matter to you? why should it matter to me?
truth is im done giving a **** about life
when the one person I truly loved doesn't give half a **** about me

its one of those nights where I can't resist the temptation
im done
goodbye