This is not a breakup poem This is not me liquifying when I open my eyes in the morning This is not my furious animal tearing at my chest to control the thrashing inside This is not the bile that burns my throat And this is not the hollow in my abdomen
This is not a breakup poem This is not your static sobs and back-breaking voice cracks This is not your acid apology This is not your deadly uncertainty And this is not the jagged shards of yourself
This is not a breakup poem This is not the blood bursting from my scraped elbows and knees when I went head over heels because you promised you would catch me This is not my pavement-smacked stinging palms This is not the gravel in my wounds from when you let go too soon
This is not a breakup poem This is not your whiskey bottle on the shelf at the foot of my bed, a gentle reminder that now I have nightmares alone This is not the toothbrush and the hair gel and the speakers and the things that have more staying power than you And this is not a breakup poem