I hate how much power I have over you
And that I choose not to use it
I hate that you say I don't ask for things
When, in truth, I'm selfish
I hate how you see what I want you to
And you never try to look past it
I hate seeing you happy
Knowing that I will never be
I hate watching you have fun
And that I have no such freedom
I hate how I can never be as good as you
And believe me, I've tried life on that side
I hate how you can just go with the flow
While I'm struggling keep up and not to drown
I hate it when you're nice to me
When I've done nothing to deserve your kindness
I hate you for saying I'm a good person
When, in truth, I'm just a cynical wretch
I hate how much I've had to go through
And that I just keep walking like nothing's wrong
I hate how you loved the lie
And never the real me.
But I love how you won't give up on me
Even if I hate to say it