As i live my life
death seems to follows me

with longing for virtue
looking for dreams

my life is so complicated
where no one can trust me

i need to free myself
from myself

locked up inside
brings me nothing but agony

i say what i say
i do what i do

never knowing
what is coming

180 degrees left
180 degrees right

i fight all the way
to let it go

i need another way
to feel real