You're not good enough
Lying in the floor of your bedroom
Desperately trying to catch a breath
Through the tears you've been holding.
Stop it.
You can breathe just fine.
Eyes scanning over old messages
And the little empty arrow
Both serving as proof that he doesn't care.
You knew that though.
And you still let it happen.
Fingers grasping for the cool metal blade
As it kisses your skin for the first time in months.
Such a ***** for attention and ***
Get a hold of yourself, ****.
Lips dancing on the silver spoon
As its repeatedly brought to your lips.
You can feel your thighs swell with each bite
And your stomach jiggle with each sip.
Keep eating honey.
You never had enough self control anyways.
Mind wandering
From school studies to pointless topics.
Grade lowering with every text sent
And minute not spent studying.
Thats okay darling
It's not like you ever really had a chance at college.

You're not good enough.
You'll never be good enough.
*Stop trying.