hand on the steering wheel
other on my thigh
my head on your shoulder
i promised myself i wouldn’t get too attached
**** was i wrong

im not the one you exchange nervous giggles with
the hand you hold in public
the lips you kiss in front of your friends
the one you tell them about with an excited glint in your eye
the one that causes your heart to pick up at the sight of

no

im the one you fall back on
the one you practically ignore until you need me
the lips you kiss out of lust
the hands you guide to please you
the one you never speak about
the one that will always be there to come ******* in a bathroom stall
who will send you pictures so you have something to do on those lonely nights when you miss her and im the only one there
im not your first choice
hell i was never even a choice to begin with

oh i wish i was
i wish you loved me half as much as you love her
but i guess it was never meant to be that way

You've lips like cough syrup.  
Hands like morphine.
Breath like smoke in my lungs.
Body like ******.
Eyes like acid.
Scent like *******.
Voice like *****.
Touch like ecstasy.

Darling I'm addicted.
You could my new bad habit.

I cant help but wonder
Whether your desires for me
Are plainly ******
Or something more

Because I know this is meant to be strictly *******
But oh baby I cant stop the fluttering of my heart
Every second our eyes meet every time our arms brush
My breath catches in the seconds our lips hover together

I know this is gonna hurt
Please prove me wrong.

You're not good enough
Lying in the floor of your bedroom
Desperately trying to catch a breath
Through the tears you've been holding.
Stop it.
You can breathe just fine.
Eyes scanning over old messages
And the little empty arrow
Both serving as proof that he doesn't care.
You knew that though.
And you still let it happen.
Fingers grasping for the cool metal blade
As it kisses your skin for the first time in months.
Such a ***** for attention and ***
Get a hold of yourself, ****.
Lips dancing on the silver spoon
As its repeatedly brought to your lips.
You can feel your thighs swell with each bite
And your stomach jiggle with each sip.
Keep eating honey.
You never had enough self control anyways.
Mind wandering
From school studies to pointless topics.
Grade lowering with every text sent
And minute not spent studying.
Thats okay darling
It's not like you ever really had a chance at college.

You're not good enough.
You'll never be good enough.
*Stop trying.

you're not good enough for him
you're only good enough for them
silly little girl
you thought you had a chance
you knew he didn't care
you knew
you knew
you knew
you knew you weren't good enough.
how could you have been so stupid
not to see
that he
doesn't care
about you.