I think to myself
if i cry,
i am weak.

i think to myself
what happens if i weep?

will you come back to my side,
holding me in your warm embrace
while i bury my face in your shirt?

will the ice around your heart melt away
since the last thing i said to you
was goodbye?

what would you do
if i stood on your doorstep
with the heart that i ripped out of your chest
in my hands?

what would you say
if i texted you "come back"?

what would you do
if i cr(di)ied?