if written if I thought before typing this might make some sense anyways I have drifted from my purpose and forgot why I started this but to save the essence I go on meandering without a theme and does that make my day without sun or my meaning any more interesting like I have any cares when daily struggles are so near and death and loss are so much more poetic than anything I could possibly dream up so I go on streams of some poet said a long time ago about thought thinking better when like he planned his stream like outlined his whole thing he wrote all of a sudden.