I think it's really pathetic that you want to change.
I think it's really pathetic that you're willing to become like everyone else when you've seemed to be happy with you for the past 15 years.
I think it's really pathetic that you dye your hair ten different colors just to get noticed, and that you feel the need to wear 2 different kinds of foundation just to look "average."
I think it's really pathetic that you think you're pathetic.