I never chose to be alone I was left waiting as everyone around me got their own partners Each and everyone finding someone leaving me with a smaller possibility to find mine I busy myself with responsibilities and obligations no such luck Certain distractions only last so much I still wallow in deep thought about the time I get to meet you, my dear. I hope it would be perfect As how they say it would be With one glance I'll fall in the abyss of blissful uncertainty With love comes the risk to be vulnerable the danger to get hurt But, seeing all these couples around me makes me desire the thought of being hurt because only then can I know that I love It is better than this feeling of loneliness. Bitter images and emptiness fill my broken hours of insomniac wonderment I stare blankly at a wall keeping my normal self showing as the world around me falls asleep I lie awake thinking how unfortunate it is to never be someone's first thought in the morning or someone's last thought of goodnight