Sometimes I wish
My body wasn't all it is
That I couldn't
Repair
So very easily

Sometimes I wish
My soul could disappear
Like in the movies
Except without heaven

Sometimes I wish
I could stay awake
Stay broken
Stay raw
Stay

Just stay
In a state I put myself
And a Love I choose to make fade

I don't want to stop decay
I Love decay
Like I Loved you
And the person who was me

Sometimes I wish
I imagine
I pray
My body stops
And wills me, too
To break
And in mind, body, soul
I jump
Far
And just

Stay