When you left
I never thought I'd ever be happy again
I wasn't right
I have been happy
But there's still something missing
This is hard
to say
to anyone
especially someone who knows your deepest secrets
who can scream them to the entire world
but someone who should know
that even though
your heart has been torn by the person mentioned before
something still pulls you towards them
though you promised yourself
you were over him
promised your parents
you were friends again
but the pain of seeing him hurts so much
because you know you're still in total utter love with him
but you don't want to ruin your just mended friendship
or have him hate you again
yet when people tell you he still likes you its hard not to think you have a chance
and you've apologized over and over for what you've done
but never once has he said you've been forgiven
It's hard when you love someone
And you would do anything for them
This is hard
telling you that I'm still crazy about you
This is stupid
God
This is hard