What I read between your lines:

2 years ago -
I NEVER HAD ***
I NEVER HAD ***
I NEVER HAD ***
(Why not have it with me then.)
(What? I can't. I mean, we shouldn't.)
(Fine.)
. . .
A year and a half ago -
I WANNA HAVE ***
I WANNA HAVE ***
I WANNA HAVE ***
(*****. ******* *****.)
. . .
1 year ago -
I'M GONNA HAVE ***
I'M GONNA HAVE ***
I'M GONNA HAVE ***
(Wait. Don't . . .)
. . .
Half a year ago -
I FINALLY HAD ***
I FINALLY HAD ***
I FINALLY HAD ***
(No! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!)

and ever since -
I JUST HAD ***
I'M GONNA HAVE *** AGAIN
I LOVE GETTING ****** BY MY B-B-BOYFRIEND
I HAD *** THIS MORNING
I'LL HAVE *** TONIGHT
I LOVE HAVING ***
IT MAKES ME FEEL ALRIGHT
I CANT BELIEVE I WENT MY WHOLE LIFE WITHOUT EVER HAVING ***
I SWEAR TO ******* GOD
*** IS THE ******* BEST
a slow and painful death by repeated stabs to the chest
(**** me.)