Breath

Suffocating amidst her absence and yet now able to breathe
Yet in still drowning in grief ,
I inhale the void she left behind with her indifference.
Indifference, what took me to the now .
Although she needed both hands to hold my heart , she could not free them both to grasp it.
Despite her name inscribed on its walls, she couldn't get her initials off the other, to handle mine.
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Tears amass in the pit of my stomach ,
Bottled up dreams disappearing into the eye of the whirlpool trembling in my gut.
As I too tried to hold in against the current.
But I grew tired , tired if trying to hold in to something that didn't wanna stay.
I stopped struggling  
She let me go
Only to implode into my own peril as I let the eddy pull me under.
No more , do I sit in wonder
From the commitment she couldn't keep.
I find myself drowning with her indecision
And suffocating , now that she has.
My heart can't stay afloat in pieces
And she let go of my heart, because of a heart she couldn't let go of .