instead of morning dew you woke up with snowflakes in your tear ducts and the icicles trickling off your fingers looked so pretty bleeding rain;
do you remember how your bones shook like avalanche heartbeats and how all those broken paintbrushes were sharper than they looked at five am with only fireplace ashes for charcoal and old prose to keep yourself warm
you have forgotten again - ice is only cold when it's crawling up your spine, ice is only cold when it's all you'll ever hold, ice is only cold when you do not want to breathe the dawn again
the icicles did not hurt - these frostbitten nerve endings make breathing through the numbness almost as natural as the selfish sun and the reds and the yellows and the warmth that will melt the terror in my lungs into shaking palms dripping red on tablecloth poetry
the sadness was locked away, frozen behind my shivering ribcage and I miss the way this ice felt in my veins, almost as if I'd never have to feel again
how could I forget? this rain is colder than any winter I've ever known