Do you ever look back at the things you've written?
If you haven't, I strongly suggest you don't.
You'll find things about yourself lurking behind your own words.
things that you never wanted to know.
Painful memories that flowed through your fingertips
in a moment of breathless euphoria.
You see your despair in every letter,
every tear-stained letter.
You see your hope for happiness fade at every line.
You sometimes wish you could rewind.
Other times you just want to close your eyes.
But you're stuck,
reading words you'd forgotten you'd ever written.
Like a really ****** TV, that only has 5 channels,
And the all play the same show,
With the same theme song,
Replaying the same episodes.
You change the channel hoping to get something new
But the ****** TV keeps mocking you.
You can't stop it,
You can't pause it,
You can't rewind the stupid thing.
You just sit there and cry
and you never know why.