I can still feel the taste of your nicotine kiss lingering on my lips after you've left my house
I hate it
The way you show up at my door step at 3 in the morning reeking of ***** after drinking for no **** reason
I hate it
How you drive too fast and scare me half to death
I hate it

In these moments I question everything by drowning myself in my doubts
Just as I want to give up I remember

The way you wrap your arms around me infront of your family
I love it
How you're always there for me when I'm depressed and don't want to leave my room
I love it
When we're in your truck and you sing at the top of your lungs just to make me laugh
I love it
The truth is I love you

except you know all my weaknesses


And I hate it