It's not like he "broke my heart" or some **** I wasn't "in love" with him I'm not even totally sure I believe in romantic love anymore after him and everything else, but he DID hurt me either way and I DID like him. :/ Idk. Whatever. It's just that, he is a trigger for me when something negative happens involving him, one of my "moods" kick in where I feel so worthless and ugly and horrible.

Don't ask why I loathe the sun. I know, I know it gives me life etc. etc. blah blah blah I KNOW. I know I tend to enjoy my life more with the Sun in it, but I still hate it. Actually, same goes for him too.