I sit still and watch
With eyes sharp enough to cut
As the grey ocean foam
Crashes on the sea wall

Hundreds of black stones
All with difference and irregularity
Stacked layer upon layer upon layer
Now wet, but still greatly unwashed

I sit on the edge
And look down on my feet
I scrape the callouses on stone
The sea foam washes but doesn't clean

I watch as the ocean turns black
My feet kicks the relentless foam
The stone wall remains intact
So I crumble in its place

The sea drags me out
I drink the abysmal drink
I sway to the whims of a lonely moon
I crash on a wall of indifference and regularity

On a night like any other,
I went outside to have a smoke
I saw a gecko on a tree
and to my surprise, it spoke!

Tsk, tsk, tsk
the lizard said
Its haunting disapproval
followed me to bed

The next evening, I came back
to see what its problem was
I asked, "You disagree with cigarettes?
I'll quit the habit, if I must!"

Tsk, tsk, tsk
the lizard said
I can't be certain, but I'd bet
it was shaking its little head

The following night, I returned
to again face cold-blooded judgment
I lamented, "Why do you torment me so,
without reason, with no argument?"

Tsk, tsk, tsk
the lizard went
By that time, my patience
was utterly spent

On our last meeting, I carried with me
a pair of scissors and ****** on my mind
As I approached the gecko with sharp intent,
suddenly the tail detached from its behind!

Tsk, tsk, tsk
the lizard mocked me as it left
Moonlight creatures claim another victim
Of my dignity, I am bereft

I dive into deep, still water.
I make no sound,
not a single ripple on the surface.
There are no bubbles,
no pockets of air,
but I do not struggle.
I float in your essence;
heart and thought drift away
with familiar quietude.
Forever I remain
blissfully unaware that I
cannot swim.