The Kitten Quiet, Stalks Her Prey
The Sparrow Flies On Golden Wing
Espy The Sparrow, The Kitten Purrs
Come To Kitty, Sparrow Sing!!!

Watching you die.
     All Alone!
      
       WHY?

If by chance we meet again
I hope you tell me I'm forgiven
for all the things I should have
said and done while you were living.

And when it,s time
for me to die
I find myself in Hell
You will know that
your revenge
Has been served
Sweet and well!

ALL IS QUIET
YOU ARE SLEEPING
IV'E DONE ALL I CAN
YOUR'E IN THE LORDS' KEEPING

I KNOW YOUR'E FREE FROM PAIN
YOUR MOMENTS ALMOST HERE
I KNOW TONIGHT YOUR'E SAFE
THE LORD IS WAITING NEAR!

You stabbed me 24 times and slit my throat
then dropped me to the ***** floor
as I watched, you walk away from me
You stabbed the man who tried to help me twice more,

You left me drowning in a pool of my blood
and never once looked back to see
you just kept walking out the door
as my lifes blood pour out of me,

There was a young Sergeant
who came running to my aid
ripping the shirt right off his back
pressing it to my neck to stop the spray,

He saved the life you meant to take
you didn't even ask if I'd died
my heart stopped twice that night
Oh how those Surgeons tried

I'm the one left in a prison
while now your'e walking free
"No Remorse" I was told
for what you did to me

But Know this My Dear Leo
if I ever see you, you better run
no one will have to wonder Why
You'll answer to my Gun.

Today I'm going to take a trip
to the far recess of my mind
Hike a trail through my memories
and hope that I can find
a spot so sweet
that my memory retreats,

I'm going to search every path
follow every trail
til my soul is lost
between Heaven and Hell
and if my feet go astray
please guide my way,

and though I may not see your face
I will find your spirit
wrap myself within your Love
and hope I can feel it,

One last journey
I must take
for my Hearts sake!

My Mind Retreats

You rode into my life
on your black KNIGHT
and you stormed my CASTLE
with your charm,
Then you used your PAWNS
to keep me IN CHECK
and you told me you
were my KING.
I began to hate you so I
confessed to my BISHOP
but you made a fatal mistake.
You underestimated my Queen
and I escaped
CHECKMATE!!!
Any one else want to try Castleling?

You always loved giving me rainbows
I could always expect to get one after a fight
a couple of throws of your fists
a few kicks in the spleen every night.
They start out black add blood red
with a tinge of purple
Rainbows made by you.

A couple of days pass the bruises fade
you see ugly brown and yellow
My Rainbows made.
But now you're not happy
cause you can't find green
so you start another Rainbow
cause you're so **** mean.

Night after night you act so concerned
I can expect more Rainbows
at your every turn.

You always loved giving me Rainbows

"IS THIS MY *** OF GOLD?"
            















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You come at me at night, invading my mind as I sleep,
Like the riptides of the ocean. You drag me down into
the Netherworld of the sea,
You waiting there, knife in hand plunging in my helpless
body,Again and Again, The Agony of pain in my breast
as you slash your way through my mind. my blood mingling
with the saltwater...

The God of the sea, releasing my battered and bruised Soul
to the surface, Panic leaving me unable to swim paralell to
the shore of this nightmare, can't swim out of your riptide.

My mind Screaming, Screaming me awake, Tears running
down my face, tasting salt on my tongue, Is it from the sea?
The taste so real, Is this Nightmare really over? will it ever
Really be over?

I just found out, the 'GOVERNMENT"Has given every Pharmacy in all the USA a "Quota", they get a certain amount of Painpills at the begining of the Month and that has to be enough til the Next month;  A "Quota"

Seriously!!!
Well its the end of the month,

My Pharmacist said she could'nt even borrow from another Pharmacy because they didn't have any either,
HOW Many are out here hurting?
Her advice was to have my Doctor call them in at the begining of each month, she was also mad that she still had to give out painspills to first come, first serve, that she still had to give out painpills to someone she knew was abusing them and then had to deny a cancer patient.
This does Not Solve the problem you idiots!
and causes undo Pain unto  the honest, hard working, the hurting ones.
End of the month, there are no more to give out.
So here we sit in pain so bad you want to scream!
I'm a Law abiding Citizen, pay taxes and here i sit hurting
How Much Are we going to take from the "GOVERNMENT"

Please open the Book Lord
My times almost done
I must read more of
The Father  The Son,

Please turn the pages
and let me read on
Let me savor the words
Before I am gone,

Please turn them gently
The pages are worn
I've read them so much
The corners are torn,

Just one more page Lord
So I can recall
The Beautiful words that
you gave us all.

PASS ME NOT
HEAR MY HUMBLE CRY
HEAL MY WOUNDED HEART
DO NOT PASS ME BY

MY HEARTS BROKEN IN TWO
AND FALLS THE SILENT TEARS
SAVE ME WITH THY LOVING GRACE
FORGIVE MY SINS ALL THESE YEARS!

PLEASE LORD PASS ME NOT!

YOU FAILED YOUR OWN
              SHAME!

And behold I woke one morn and heard
the most glorious Sigh
and in my grief strickin state
I turned around and listened

I felt Gods presence  and knew
God had not abandoned me
in my suffering,

God had turned that Sigh into
a Beautiful Soul with  her hands
with the purple fingernails and sparklies
extended to me in Friendship,

God had not abandoned me at all
but left me with this Glorious gift
This Beautiful Sye to show me life
was still worth living,

I reached out from all my sorrow
and grabbed her hand that had become
my lifeline Blessed by God himself and
I climbed out of the darkness into the light
beckoning from her and in her
                 SYE
I started to live again!

If I'd but known that I'd been given
but one Love in my lifetime
I gladly would have walked
the road alone

For surely to have the Love
of your life, the mate of your soul
so violently ripped from your arms
and your heart after so short a time.

The pure agony of no longer
having that bond,
I'd rather have remained ignorant
than left with such despair!|

How do you live
With a broken Heart
and half a Soul?

Come stranger Enter my Domain
Search and break the firewalls for the entrance to my life
One by one break through
and behind the last wall you will find
UTTER DEVOTION, LOYALTY AND TRUTH.
FRIENDSHIP THAT KNOWS NO BOUNDS,
SOMEONE TO LEAN ON IN GOOD TIMES AND BAD,
SOMEONE TO TALK AND LISTEN TO YOU AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY OR NIGHT but most of all you'll find LOVE that has no bounds
that never fails when others leave you.
You'll find respect for who you are, for what you believe in.

BUT I WARN YOU - ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!

If you ever want to leave me you'll always have the freedom to do so
But do it Gently and seal back the walls that you entered through
Then I can change the Password to my heart and the Username of my life, so then I can wait here until the next stranger comes along!

I have yet to meet
        A Treasure far more sweet!!!!

IF I CAN'T SEE YOU

I CAN'T TRUST YOU

THAT'S THE CARDINAL RULE!

SO TONIGHT I FIND

I'VE BEEN BLIND

I'VE BEEN TWICE THE FOOL!

IF YOUR'E BEING HONEST
AND HE'S KEEPING SECRETS

IF YOUR'E MAKING LOVE
AND HE'S HAVING ***

IF YOU STAY HOME
AND HE'S ALWAYS GONE

IF YOUR'E ASLEEP ALONE
AND HE'S ON THE PHONE AT 3AM

I HATE TO TELL YOU
BUT THE LOVE IS GONE

We met on a Monday
                                            We flirted on a Tuesday
                                          We went on a date Wednesday
                                  
       We kissed on Thursday
                                          We had *** on Friday
                                             We got married Saturday
                                                We regretted it Sunday!

Thinking,
       Thinking,
             Thinking.....  
          I Almost Had A Thought......
Thinking,
         Thinking,
               Thinking....
          I Was Going To Tell You.....

You were Gone.  :(

Like Fine Wine,

my thoughts are caught in a bottle....

And I do not have a corkscrew!!!

After months and months Day after agonizing Day
they tell me she can't live through another night but she lingers somewhere
between this world and the next. Three days of this and every night they tell me the same thing.
After months of taking care of her by myself without Family or Friends honoring her request to die at Home and with Dignity. I have done my best for her without any qualms. Getting up every 2 hours to give her meds to keep her comfortable and out of pain living on coffee. tea or cokes. Caffiene running in my veins.
My Heart perpetually in my throat, the ache so bad I can't even describe it.

THREE DAYS AGO I need your arms around me holding me tight so I would know there was still life in me.
And Yesterday I needed your shoulder to cry on when I fell to pieces. All day I was one big mess.
And when I cried myself to sleep last night I needed your touch so badly that I was the one dying with the need.

But today I turned cold inside remembering you say you Love me, you say
you are there for me Always. You say I am your heart forever,
But the SILENCE of you the past three days have shouted through the rooftop of my heart, that all you did was Lie to me during my most vulnerable time.

I just want to yell
"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?
   WHAT WAS SO IMPORTANT'? when I needed you to talk to, you said you had business  and all I got was SILENCE the past three days.

WELL THE PAST THREE DAYS HAVE COME TO TONIGHT AND NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE NOW OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING NOW,
LETS SEE HOW YOU LIKE THE SILENCE FOREVER CAUSE THESE THREE DAYS HAVE SHOWN ME THAT I CAN SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE. I MADE IT THROUGH

IF I CAN SURVIVE THIS FROM YOU DURING THESE HORRIBLE DAYS AND NIGHTS OF HELL ON EARTH THEN I CAN SURVIVE THE REST OF THIS LIVING HELL
                                            WITHOUT YOU!

IT'S YOUR LOSS

YOU HAVE JUST LOST THE BEST PART OF YOU!

                                 SILENCE
                                         SILENCE
                                                    GONE!­

Last night I came onto the hellopoetry site to try to drown out my mom's death rattle in some good poetry. Quite a few people, good decent people who have gathered around me and supported me during this agonizing time and one of those sweet Poets was being verbally and mentally attacked by
                                   LOGHAIN CARV'O
His criticisms were malicious and very hurtful and his taunting her was more than I could bare for a friend. She related the conversation to me and she was really upset. She told me what he said verbatim' It was way uncalled for. And she is not the only one he is doing this to. He's being offensive to the extreme.Calling her a peasant and telling her she couldn't write. And I'll probably catch all kinds of hell for doing it but I paid a "VISIT" to his site and left this comment and I Quote

"Stop picking on ---------You call this a poem. You have some nerve telling her she can't write and you write crap like this. Well 1 out of 82 reads isn't so hot is it. Come on and kick me a few times. I should be easy pickings for you. I dare you ******"

Well he responded with and I quote

"It is obvious you do not have artistic vision like I, that or you did not read my poems and just came here in a petty attempt to demoralize I in retaliation to the criticisms I have revealed to most peoples "poetry" I wish to waste no more breath on my lessers. Just remember I when you see my talent spread out across the world. Remember how you showed the Greatest, most renowned and revered artist no support" End Quote.

Loghain carv'o also stated  that "The community on this site is rather poor"

He also stated
"This site isn't exactly known for it's Grand Community"

So now I know he doesn't even mind kicking some one who is already down. and i for one would like to know since he doesn't like this site or the Real Poets why stay? If he doesn't like the"GRAND COMMUNITY" why the hell he's still here. If he doesn't like us "lessers' why be among us.

And I didn't even tell you the most malicious comments.

When some one attacks a friend I will respond. That's what friends do.
And Loghain carv'o is proving to be no ones friend. And his
                          GOD COMPLEX is offensive!

I SERVE ONE GOD ONLY AND IT IS NOT Loghain carv'o!!!

I only have one thing to say to Loghain carv'o and that is and I quote again

My visit to hellopoetry last night to get away for a moment from listening to my mothers death rattle, to read a few poems and find a little Peace for a few moments was ruined by you and your offensive attitude and comments and since i'm already in a living hell right  nowI can find you some room here so come enjoy hell with me. Oh but I almost forgot you don't want to consort with us "lessers"
THE MIGHTY SURE DO HAVE A LONG WAY TO FALL LOGHAIN

                   YOURS SINCERELY
                                   Paula

This is for you friend love Paula

You can dish it out but you sure can't take it!

Tonight my mind is silent
memories gone away
my lips are sealed
with nothig left to say

the blush has left my cheeks
the light has left my eyes
my heart stops its beat
tonight my soul dies!

I guess I'm just a Throw- away friend!
Thanks for the great memories.........

When you wake
I hold your hand
tell you everythings okay

IT'S NOT I'M LYING!

You look at me
with drug glazed eyes
and ask "what's wrong"
I say "nothing"

I'M LYING

You sit up for
just a moment
Tell me your'e
Writing a letter to GOD
I tell you the Angels coming

YOU SAY NO YOUR'E LYING!

YOUR HAND OUTSRETCHED IN FRIENDSHIP.....

                   Reaching
                        Reaching
                              Reaching
                            

                       YOU"RE
                       HOLDING
                             IT
                            TO
                           FAR

                                A
                                 W
                                   A
                                     Y.
                                         .
                                           .
                                             .

I Don't want the Practiced
                 Love Confession
                          Of A Seducer,
I want the Rough, imperfect
                  Heartfelt Statement of Truth
                          Of A Man In Love!

I only have one question
******* YOU WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?