I hate that I love you
I hate that when you show up my heartbeats faster
I hate that I can't get over you
I hate you
I hate that you don't return my feelings
I hate this life
I hate me
for living in a fantasy
I love you
for bringing me back to reality

I’m drowning in my salty sea of heartbreaking memories,
bottled up thoughts rising, trapped in my mind,
resounding melodies, confused, misused, abused,
untrue, painful poetry, never-ending metaphors
crushing my core, divorced, no remorse,
running off course, surrendering to the insane
dreams clogged up in filthy gutters, my brain drained,
strained, strange, slain, dwindling in crazy, hazy stages.  
I’m sad to say that love has taken a holiday, and all these
feelings inside of me are spinning in rotten realms,
dried up, shuddering, stuttering, smashed, slashed,
sinking into restless states.  Where was I going?
Bones blown into overdone city slums, functions
shrunken, compounded conjunctions slowed down
and smoldered, buried beneath uninhabited deserts.
The sun was steaming my wretched skin,
my fingers crippled, my shoulders swollen, rusted,
shoveled, sweaty palms fallen, colored with crazed
consonants, quivering, barely breathing.

Let’s dance together tonight and feel
the powerful sparks erupt inside our hearts,
move from side to side, grinding, rewinding,
inviting, never mind the blinking traffic lights
outside and streetcars passing by, I just wanna
be here with you, holding each other, embracing
the heavenly beat filling the groovy room.

Let our desires brainwash each other’s thoughts,
watch the love connection grow and glow
as our souls intertwine in astonishing alignment,
the softness of your flesh, chest, and head
such a blessing, sexing me in my fantasies,
our eyes staring so deeply at each other,
lost in the moment, resting my face next
to yours, together again, encased in this joyfulness.

Let me soak in your warm touch,
in your relaxing swagger, your kisses
and touches a sparkling moment of hotness
lingering on my lubricious lips, savoring
the scent of your minty breath, how you
illuminate the poetry revolving in my inner
thoughts, the rarest jewel alive and vibrant.

I want to ride your spellbinding roller coaster,
feel the amazement of your flesh shocking me
like a thousand waves of electricity, feeling
completely convulsed, sprung on your drumbeat,
unable to get off my feet, succumbing to the special
tune, never wishing to miss your sexiness.

Your bright city of smooth spice relaxes my mind,
inspires me to be a greater me, instilling depth
and intelligence in me, giving me abundant happiness
a burst of brightness in my brown eyes, so fly
that I wish you were nearby to excite my membranes,
make my heartbeat rise and release sweetness,

I need to be so close to you, to rub your lustrous
black hair, the waves so swimmingly deep
and ravishing, a peak of upbeat desires
climbing higher to ecstasy, so in tune
with the vivid veins surfacing your magnificent
being, like a gleaming mansion, you are a man
of high quality, a true representation of an iconic
figure fulfilling my soul.

How could I have ever imagined
that being with you would take me
to places that I could never comprehend,
how your dreamy poetry glistened on me,
so magical and harmonious, feeling so sweet
for your sensuous breeze, how you move me
in a land of treasurable sapphires, blissful
hues, silky, hot ecstasy, melting away
in your handsomeness.