that you are
after all
who i wish i had become,
(i do not know you) .
the lips neither the mouth nor
teeth between neck.
i kiss,
and again
i am not you.
i make after the rain
my skin to run
with rivulets of sun.
i do not live early
or sweet between you.
i do not make the small sound
of your breath
inside my own breath.
but, after all, i have my son.
and what more is there than that?
nothing.
and perhaps
(after all)
he shall be
who i wish i had become.