Forgive me, but i dont love you
the way you wish
the fear of breaking your heart
is far to strong to
make it more than a secret
my heart is still weak from my last
...and bringing up love causes me to shy away
Believe me you are kind
but i cant satisfy what your  asking of me.
i can not make my heart feel something it wont
even though i wish i could...
if only i could forget my feelings
as easy as forgetting other things
i wish my feelings for him would just fade
like a bruise..
i'm driving myself insane trying to convince
myself that he is easy to get over,
if only it could be as easy as they tell it in the books i read..
please don't run away..
forgive me

I'm on fire, I'm on fire for you God!
I'm running, running after you!
To see your face is all I desire!
Embrace me god  in your arms
Bring me past normal,
I want to go far on your path!
Let me be your hands and feet,
Let me be as a vessel so that your life canflow through mine...
And touch people so strongly, that woud have such an impact on their lives
That they can't hold back any longer that they can't turn their
Face any longer, I don't want to denie you anymore..
I want your will god and
As I step foot in Israel
I k ow you will be by my side, with every step I take
... Im on fire for you ...

He's on my mind but so are you,
when i think of HIM, i think of YOU
when i see HIM i see YOU!!
its like i'm looking in the same mirror,
and your always right beside me.
you see,
i see how you be trying to be,
trying to disguise yourself as the person
you got me thinking i wanna see...
THE PERSON I WANNA BE........... with...
and now i got him so confused,
searching both ways,
left and right,
crying inside,
not knowing what to do,
hes so confused...
WHO AM I to think of anyone else but you....
to distort and twist my thoughts into something so SICKENING!??
see i know its killing YOU
because its killing ME!
Knowing it doesn't really matter cause either way
no ones really listening...
...but see then i FEEL you....
everything I've ever wanted,
so close i could almost reach you...
to ever leave you,
would only end up in destruction.
all these high hopes i cant see cause there covered up and drugged up in all this filthy lusting...
i wish you'd change...
maybe some day,
but for NOW your to scared....
to scared to trust anyone but yourself...
to think you'd be named filthy and stained
because you've become the one they blame..
...so you pull back....
trying to DISGUISE those feelings you try so hard to hide,
when REALLY your the only one hiding here!!!
NOT your WORDS not NOT your GUILT or your SHAME.
but your HAPPINESS , your JOY and the LOVE you thought would have came....
but it didn't......
now most of you's left in your past,
chained up and ******* dragging behind your LIES.
the ones your pretended you couldn't SEE,
and the ones you tried so hard to ignore and push behind you,
hoping you could find away to just WALK AWAY
from your MISTAKES you call ME...
but we both KNOW,
there's one thing stopping you.....
cause you know,
when your all alone in your bedroom....
there's nothing you can leave behind,
or push out of your mind..
because its just you..
your forced to face the truth that your not over me...
..and I'M not OVER  you....
so stop pulling back ...
become the man God per-destend you to BE....
so i can stop thinking about you,
and you can stop thinking about ME....
cause in the END it doesn't really matter..
..cause no ones really listening

For i say hear me!
doesn't it always get darkest before the sunrise?
The victory is ours!
Times of glorious triumph is ahead!
So rise up and declare happiness when times get rough, and circumstances say that your worthless, recognize that, that's the enemy, and cast out there lies.
Start seeing yourself from a heavenly prospective, NOT how your earthly experiences depict you.

Thats why i died on the cross for you,
thats why i took the crown of thorns for you,
Because i...wanted...YOU!
so you wouldn't have to be drowning in sin,
so you could live and not be afraid of the devils curses.
Thats why i said "it is finished"
I ment it...

God help us
...I was a fool...
I heard you loud and clear
To remember
My resolution, and my
Goals.... But
I ignored you.... And I
Continued to follow
In my own sinful
Desires.
What can I do, Lord
Please forgive me,
I don't want to be a fool, God!
I want to honor you
In all my ways!!
But I guess it's
Hard sometimes....

i wanna pour out my emotions all over you...
i wanna show you how much i appreciate you, how much youve been making me feel so good.
with your smile you melt me to pieces, and when i look at your eyes i feel like im lost in a great depth of something amazing..
the power of love is so **** incredible... and loving you is really all thats on my mind.
i wanna take this time we have to show you how much you mean to me
look into my eyes, ive been waiting so long....

Baby your my everything!!
do you realize that i wouldn't want to change you for nothing.
your the A and Z to my Alphabet .
the "L" to my "OVE"
the melody to my verses,
the bird to my wings,
the air that i breath
your like the cherry to my ice cream.
the BEE to my HONEY
and baby,
see i CANT BE with out YOU! ..I!!.......... Love you :)
... i go all Stevie Wonder, when i wonder if i can see ME without you.
i start going crazy if i try to think something else besides YOU and ME.
BOY, its like your TATTOOED to my mind, cause your ALL i can think about :)
Darling,
I'm not ME without YOU.
that's why i know we can whether any storm that the world decides to throw at us... baby were stuck like glue! that's why i know words cant ever tare this love to pieces. I'm yours...and i will forever be :) boy, its you and me :)

Everybody thinks somethin,
Someones always telling me what to think,
they say walk away, but i wanna stay... But
i can think for myself,
your just holding me back when i know theres more.
theres no point in fighting with you..
i dont need you, but i love you and you keep bringing me back to you...so let me go,
just say you dont love me so i can move on, and love again.....

conflicting thoughts....
scattered in her mined.....
cant be put together...
how come you hide your face from me?
.....why are you so set in your path?
how dare you say its tougher for you..
.is it so bad
to want a relationship with my father?
  Behind you i see fear...
fear that your going to loose me,
but you wont.
I love you..
cant you see?
where do i come from?
i long for a relationship with my father..
so let me know him..
stop keeping me in *******..
let me go!

I wish you were here tonight..
I ponder you in my dreaming.
I lay in bed
under the safety of my covers,
i put my head phones in and
dream of slow dancing with you
on the hardwear floor in my living room.
After we push the table out
of the way it's just enough space..
As we walk into the living room
are steps rhyme..
I do wish you were here tonight
So you could sweep me off my feet and  
dance me till the morning!
But for now,
I'll just lay in bed
With my head phones in
And dream of us dancing

I wish you were here tonight..
I ponder you in my dreaming.
I lay in bed
under the safety of my covers,
i put my head phones in and
dream of slow dancing with you
on the hardwear floor in my living room.
After we push the table out
of the way it's just enough space..
As we walk into the living room
are steps rhyme..
I do wish you were here tonight
So you could sweep me off my feet and  
dance me till the morning!
But for now,
I'll just lay in bed
With my head phones in
And dream of us dancing

I wish you were here tonight..
I ponder you in my dreaming.
I lay in bed
under the safety of my covers,
i put my head phones in and
dream of slow dancing with you
on the hardwear floor in my living room.
After we push the table out
of the way it's just enough space..
As we walk into the living room
are steps rhyme..
I do wish you were here tonight
So you could sweep me off my feet and  
dance me till the morning!
But for now,
I'll just lay in bed
With my head phones in
And dream of us dancing

ive been driving myself
through insanity
not seeing you
your quite like a maze
since i cant find my way
through your crooked
and perverted mind
with me locked and chained
above your biting pit of fire
that you hide behind your
flirtatious eye.
i search through every twist,
every dip,
every turn,
just to see if your answers changed..
knowing that you dont love me,
so you can go chase your maze
memorize the twists so
you know how to drain people
into your own pleasure
im not lost anymore
i have also memorized each turn
and i have seen your tricks
you have nothing to hide
in your little maze.

looking into the mirror she doesn't see herself..
she sees the hate she uses to hate herself.. holding her knife
she tells God every night to just take her life.
Day in and day out its never ending...
watching her friends and family grow away
all this time shes spending only feeling like an outcast to herself, sometimes to everybody else...
right now she feels like the ones close are choosing somebody else
like this mirror should show a diffrent reflection.
shes not her self.
looking in the mirror i see brokenness....
through the cracks i see self hate..
i see an addict.
i see somebody always trying to measure up..
i see your never satisfied..
i see myself.

Grace, look at me when i'm talking to you...
looking at you now i see somebody else..
the people say keep looking up
but when your looking up,
its like all you can see is all this *******
and its pulling you down
you know your father is disappointed in you.  
looking at you now i see you trying to do the right thing...
i see you trying so **** hard to feel accepted.
you're in so deep.
i see you feeling like you have to hurt yourself
to just be heard by someone else
i see your cry's through that fake smile.  
...yeah the ones you wont admit
but im looking through you and i see it now....
i see you trying to drowned yourself in all your lies..
there all the same...
saying go die.
i see somebody so insecure that she cant be herself...
i see myself..