TODAY I WANT TO MAKE AN EFFORT
AN EFFORT TO BE THE CHANGE
Today is a new day,
Im gonna try my best to make it.
Because right now I don’t feel very STRONG…
Like im dwelling in all this fear
Wrapped up, trapped up in all my WRONG..
Lookin at everyone around me,
These people who know,
When they go HOME,
Its nothing more than two fists and twenty rounds of PATRON….
But for all I know, I cant stop IT,
Except for walk around and do my best to bless others before
Their to discouraged and drop IT..
Cause what better day to do it then today.
Tomorrow is just to late.
for all I know the one on my right
could be contemplating suicide..

You close your eyes
Stuck in position,
You’ve been walken on this timeline for years…
...open conviction!
Feeling torn and broken
never feel important enough to step up,
so instead your insecure
and step down.
you Go to the wrong things to ease your pain,
using it like a crutch.
Unconditional love,
got you locked out of His focus.
ONCE its over
just something else starts!
You think you’ve got it all figured out!
But you don’t!
you have hopes for useless dreams…
..dreams of worship and song,
you don’t think you can acturally achieve that do you?
….your father never did
Your not smart, you barly pass school…
your just a mediocre singer…
remember when you drowned in your own self pity
and drank down the liqur you stole?
You cant even control your own temper,
you cheater, you thief!
You call yourself a Christian?
Please your nothing better than a lost sheep….
…..to bad the person im talking about is really
..ME.

Now is the time to rejoice!
Now is the time for singing!
Stop holding back,
Be FREE
And dwell in Gods love :)
be FREE
give up your worry and your doubt
All who are weak,
You will find strength in God, alone
Find strength and
Be FREE!
push aside insecurity,
Your not a lost sheep....
find identity in Christ
All who are hopeless
You who are covered in a dull mixture of tears and darkness
Be lifted up in Christ.
And embrace your identity in Him.

God help us
...I was a fool...
I heard you loud and clear
To remember
My resolution, and my
Goals.... But
I ignored you.... And I
Continued to follow
In my own sinful
Desires.
What can I do, Lord
Please forgive me,
I don't want to be a fool, God!
I want to honor you
In all my ways!!
But I guess it's
Hard sometimes....

In my deepest moments
i can feel the fear rushing in
i can feel my pain is rising up
i can feel my doubt
coming in faster than ever
and i can feel the weight
of all the words holding me up
by my throat
Giving me no room to breath
and i can feel the hope
leaving me!
these things that used to make me happy
are the only reason for these tears....
yes, i know how it feels
when youve dug yourself so deep
in regret that you cant see....
.... the joy thats been stripped from your life.....
and see
its only harder when
you dont even listen to .....
a word i say
it doesent make it easier
when you dont EVEN KNOW WHO I AM...
ANYMORE....
but when i finally hit my limits
i realize,
that theres a hope beyond
this... crazy pain.
that even in the mist
of your devastation
even in the depths
of your pain,
EVEN in the middle
of your fear,
even in the loneliness of your past,
EVEN
in the loudest
shouting of your crys
in the times
when your pain......
brings your only comfort
...there is yet a hope left uncoverd