Burned up letters from long ago
Yellowed, stained and worn
Dust covered books with tattered pages
Records of vows that were sworn
Lovely dresses covered in lace
Now faded and weathered with time
Shoes that once matched
Now dusty and covered in grime
Photographs of family
Cracked on the floor
Memories forgotten,
Lost to a time before
Ghosts walk the halls, dragging their chains
Still anchored to this plastic life
Nothing of substance left to show
For this....or the afterlife
Be not chained to this world
By substance or fame
That isn't why you were born
Hold on to your soul
With all that you do
And let it not become worn
By the world around or demons within
They will keep you chained here for good
Open your heart and instead spend your love
Freely as you walk the earth
Then when you move on, you will not be
Chained to your possessions of this world.

April 26, 2016

Twinkling starlight
In the night
Carry my words
To the morning light
Keep me humble
In all I do
Remembering always
My debt to you
Teach me love
That never parts
Teach me to stay
True to my heart
Show me the way
Of kindness and truth
Gratitude and faith
The ways of my youth
Open my mind
My heart and my soul
Teach me to pray
Return me to whole
That when the day comes
I find my one love
I will be ready to give him
My love from above

April 26, 2016

Soul is burning
Heart on fire
My wings
Have finally unfurled
Eyes are open
My heart is too
To take on this world
No holding back
No running away
Step off the edge
Fly from the sway
Freedom awaits
From the cage
I've been in
Today is my day
And I'm going to WIN!

April 17, 2016

Body is broken
Bruised and worn
Wrinkles
Beginning to form
Heart has bandages
Holding it in place
Hair is gray
Lines in my face
My love is true
To the very core
Kind and giving
And real
See past the
Outer shell of me
Our love will be unreal.
I may not be in model form
My body isn't my soul
The life inside
Is still ablaze
Ready ...and whole
I'll love you till
The end of time
Take care of you
Push or shove
Just give this
Broken girl a chance
Rest easy
......In my love

April 17, 2016

I see the pain inside you,  and there is nothing I can do
I know I'm part of what hurts your heart
But I can't give relief to you
You need to search inside yourself
And find a way to fight
A way to put the past in the past
And leave it there for life
You must unchain yourself
From the pain of your past
If you are ever to live free
Fight your way
Back to the place
That you truly want to be
You have the strength within you
To take the first step to heal
To reach out your hand and ask for help
Tell God how you feel
Know my child you are but human
And mistakes are a part of you
Leave them behind you and move ahead
Start your life anew
The pain of your past cannot hurt you
If you leave it where it belongs
Take the step and move ahead
Upward, and onward.  Be strong.


February 8, 2015

I'm writing this tonight, with such pain in my heart,
There I go.....I think I'm going a little crazy.....
I see you at night, Even as you were here
There I go, I think I've gone a little mad.
I close my eyes and I can hear you breathing...
There I go, I think I'm a little more than sad.

I feel the pieces of you slipping away
And all that was good in me too
I feel like running away, but I don't know where I'd hide
All I want to do, is to be with you.

I can't let anyone know how I feel
For they'd take you way from me for good
I don't think I could lose you forever
Because without you I'm no good.

I can't seem to find the thread
That leads me back to my mind
I'm afraid I may lose it as well
And the result will not be kind

For if I lose the final thread
That leads me back to me
How will I find my way back
If they take you away from me.

There you go, I think I'm just a little more than sad.

Little voices
Often said
Useless are
Better dead
Take it now
Feel no pain
See the past
Never again
Run free now
Into the night
Leave for good
No more fright
Little sorrow
Nothing left
Free my mind
That's what
They said
Listen softly
Quiet now
Know no more
Tell me how
Live in peace
Without regret
Days to come
Better yet
Past is past
Whisper free
What's left is now
A better me.

July 3, 2012

I refuse to let go
Of the withering vines
That keep me a float
Their branches seem to be
All that is keeping me
From drowning
In a world where we have lost hope
Corporate monsters robbing us blind
Jokesters running our lives
Hoping we follow the rest of the flock
Quietly moving to our demise
We struggle to win
Lay down and die a little every day
Taking away our self respect
Our families and our ways
The world is broken
Our souls and spirits are
Eaten with a cancer we cannot see
Why can’t we leave each other alone
And let us live in peace?
Everyone has a right to fight
For the things that they believe
So why can’t we let it go
Instead of leaving the world to grieve
For the brothers and the sisters lost
Because of fighting those
We do not agree
Let us learn to live in peace
To you I beg this plea.

April 13, 2016

Once again
I’ve jumped the fence
To quickly to let it be
My heart is so lonely
And empty inside
That is all I could see
From the very start
We talked as if
We’d always been friends
But too fast the pace
Too quickly revealed
That this was going to end
I never meant to hurt you
I don’t want to make you cry
But I’m afraid that this is it
And I have to say goodbye
The purpose we
Were brought this way
Was not for love as I’d thought
But to help you see
What is within
Something that can’t be bought
you have the strength
to see it through
and do what needs to be done
make a change
to pursue your dreams
and make them all your own
I cannot travel this way with you
Distance between is too far
But I will watch as you become
A beautiful rising star

April 8, 2016

A word, a smile
A fleeting  glimpse
A hug, a laugh
A heart that limps
My shattered soul
Is left again
To find my heart
My strength within
Not giving up
Not backing down
Walking thru life
Without a frown
Head held high
Trudging on
Looking ahead
To find my dawn
A shining light
Within your smile
Has made my life
More worthwhile
You reached inside
And found my heart
Promising me
A brand new start
You took the pieces
Of my broken soul
Loved me gently
Until I was whole
Laughter and love
Will now lighten our days
The love that we have
Will last…..always.

April 11, 2016

There once was a time
I was broken in two
Lost and all alone
Not able to cope
Unable to find
The place that I called home
With a pill or a smoke
I would hide away
From the world and from life
Running away
From all that was good
Living in pain and strife
Lost my way
Ran from God
And all that was good and pure
Taking a hit
To make it ok
But always leaving me unsure
I chased the high
It was all that I knew
To take away the pain
Never amounting to much
Never wanting to be
Anything but vain
Then one day
A bottom I hit
So hard I thought I would die
Instead what I found
Was a willingness then
To maybe learn how to fly
Opened my heart
To the love of a God
And that of my family and friends
Suddenly,  I found the hope
Learned how to make amends
My life began to turn around
No longer in a bottle or pipe
Taking steps to learn to live
And not get caught up in the hype
Leaving a life of destruction and pain
Embracing my life once again
Learning to live One Day at a Time
Breaking away the chains
That bind my soul
To the darkness within
Opening my heart to love
Giving me willingness
To try to be
All I was meant to …in love.

April 5, 2016

Our world is crumbling
Falling apart
Losing its will to live
People having disregard
Lost respect
And forgetting how to give
Oceans laced with
Bottles and trash
Forests and playgrounds too
The world walks by
With blinders on
Never smiling too
We’ve lost our hope
We’ve lost our love
We are fighting just to survive
Trying to find a glimpse
of what it used to mean -
to be alive
we’ve forgotten our souls
our reasons to live
we hide behind our masks
pushing away the world around
focusing on our tasks
Forgetting all who are in need
Turning a blind eye
Selfishly hoarding all we can
Until the day we die
You cannot take it with you
Your treasures turn to rust
Or end up in a trash pile
And your memories turn to dust
You leave behind no legacy
Of good and kindness and love
Of lending out a helping hand
In life you fell short of
Remembering why
We were given this life
It isn’t about your things
The question that will be asked of you
Is what did you do for Me?
How did you help another
When their confidence was down?
How did you help bring light
To a person with a frown?
How did you clothe the naked?
Or feed the hungry, and hurt?
How did you show My love
To those who were out of work?
Or did you spend your life
In anger
Blaming the world for your fate
Spreading sickness, telling lies
Burying your soul in hate?
It is your choice
On how you live
And what you wish to leave
How will you be remembered my friend
What kind of life will you weave?

April 5, 2016

Yesterday was lonely
Full of empty dreams and space
Not knowing where my life was going
If I’d ever leave this place
I moved along thru each day
A zombie without a clue
Barely noticing the world around
Barely making it thru
There was no color to my world
No purpose… or plan
Nothing to motivate my life
No energy…..no I can
Then one day quite by fate
I met you in a room
Gently, softly, quietly at first
You pulled me from my tomb
Opened up my heart to grace
Took me by the hand
Spoke romantic words to me
Helped me out of the sand
That was holding back from moving on
Keeping me stuck in life
Guiding me safely to a place
Of wonderment and rife
Now we walk hand in hand
To the wonderment of our dreams
Moving forward step by step
Together as a team
Our future holds promise now
Faith will bring us there
To the place we dream about
where our love will always fare
You are my love….my dream come true
My future now holds no fear
Walking by you side by side
Our course has now been cleared

March 31, 2016

When this life is gone
And I am no longer here
Who will carry on
To help dissipate your fears?
Who will hold you when you hurt
When  your soul needs to be shared
Who will help you know
That I am still here?
I walk with you in your heart
I lay with you in bed
I hold you when you cry
I’m with you till the end
I’ll be there when you cross
On to the other side
Forever with you my love
I’ll walk right by your side
Do not cry when I leave this world
For I’ll always stay with you
How could I leave you all alone
Until your life is through?
For love will last until
Eternity is gone
I’ll forever be with you
Until your day’s are done

March 29, 2016

I wish I could reach inside you
Let us become one
So you could see, feel, taste
All that I am
I want you to see what I see
When I look into your soul
Feel the way my heart skips a beat
Every time I hear your voice
I want you to taste
The essence of who you are to me
Maybe then....
You would understand the depth
Of the love I have for you
And all that goes with saying that.
The respect, the awe of
knowing someone like you.
Of the joy I feel when you
make me laugh...or cry
by the words you say to me.
Of the pictures you paint
in the caverns of my mind.
And you love me!
All of me. 
What a gift you are.
A blessing beyond belief
Now my life is complete.
I love you.

March 26, 2016

Shadows falling
in the night
Trying to find
what is right
Searching, flailing,
falling, fight
Finding the way,
without flight
Standing still,
do not run
Await the magic,
the setting sun
Will try to guide
your soul to fun
Not the way
of the knife or gun
Let go of anger
Pain and woes
Let go of fighting
Against your foes
Open soul
to love and light
Lay down the gun,
give up the fight
Leave things alone
that hurt your soul
Don’t look back
When you let go
Onward, upward
Pushing on
Finally becoming
No longer withdrawn
Opening up
To the world
Letting your heart
And love unfurl
Treasure each moment
Of life given you
Never give up
Love will shine through.

March 23, 2016

My soul is naked, open to you
More open than I’ve ever been
Can I trust you not to break
My heart that’s buried within?
Do you feel the way I feel
Do you wish the same
As the future I seek for us
Or is it just a game?
I want to hold you in my arms
To know that you are real
Seems that time will never come
To show you how I feel
I’m trying to be patient
Though it’s wearing very thin
I’ve waited all my life for you
When will the waiting end?
All the stars lined up just right
For us to finally meet
I swear that I will wait for you
Never admitting defeat
I’ll sit here waiting…impatiently
For that day to come
When we can be together at last
When our souls unite as one
Forever then I’ll hold you near
Never letting go
Showing you each day that comes
The greatest love you’ve ever known.
March 23, 2016

Take wing my spirit
Take flight my soul
Leave behind your weakness
Stand and be bold
Risk all else
To gain what you seek
For love and regard
Are not for the meek
Step out and expose
Your courageous ways
Quiet your fears
Embrace every day
Amidst grit and brawn
Toward all that you want
Nothing comes easy
In matters of love
I risk it all to know you now
…….my heart, my soul this I vow.
March 10, 2016

I close my eyes and listen
To the soft sound of your voice as
You weave a new tale for me to hear
I see the pictures evolve before my eyes
As characters begin to appear
You take me by the heart
To places we dream to be
Painting our lives with your words
Endearing you more to me
Other men may have touched my skin
You....have touched my soul
Opening my mind again to believe
Life can once again be whole.
Dreams are made to live
Love is made to be shared
Tired of fighting against my grain
Searching for the one who cares
In the moment I ceased the fight
Heart and soul sprang forth
Then what does God hand to me
But you...my one true north.

March 6, 2016

Shining down
Shining bright
Shining on me
Through the night
Watching, waiting
Holding me near
Keeping me safe
From all that I fear
Guarding the night
From evil and fray
Helping prepare me
For another day
Light of Love
Keep me safe
Clean my heart
Of any hate
For your love
Is all I desire
To show to the world
In lesson or fire
Shining Love
Shining Bright
Keep me safe
All through the night

11/21/15

Time again to fly away
To distant land of dreams
To live the life of fantasy
Nothing is as it seems
A distant lover waits for me
To dance among the stars
Anywhere we wish to be
Is never very far
Where rainbows turn to waterfalls
And unicorns to bees
And all we wish will always be
In the land of dreams....

Pam Penta
June 18, 2012

Heart beats once
And beats twice
Never hateful
Always nice
Hides behind
Memories past
Takes away
Then makes it last
Darkness falls
Inside the room
Nothing shines
Only gloom
Heart beats once
Then fades away
Opens only
To the day
Tries to love
But cannot free
The burning hatred
Inside of me
Heart beats once
Then beats twice
Always  hateful
Never nice.

June 17, 2012

Broken dreams, lies undone
Ends a fight where no one won
Empty promises left behind
I turn away, but not unkind
A future love there will not be
A lonely life is left for me
Never tomorrow will I run
Away from this or  memories shun
For never will I be alone
In rising moon or setting sun
Another's heart my love will hold
And cry for me, for years untold
Your loss, my gain forever see
A better life waits for me.

June 3,  2012

I lie awake with silent dreams
A forgotten lovers touch
A story it so often seems
A lost memory to hush
Love songs of another time
Dance upon the wind
Taking me to where they be
A lost memory to lend
A heartbreak and a bleeding tongue
Of words and promises dead
Take me to another time
A lost memory to spend
Another lover waits for me
The broken time does bend
Forgotten is the pain of past
A lost memory to mend.

May 21, 2012

Heart on fire
Body worn
Never certain
Always torn
Want is growing
Desire and fear
Free my senses
Though never clear
Will you, won't you
Never sure
Doubt still lingers
But love is pure
Here forever
Without doubt
Till you decide
If in or out
True to you
Until the end
Whether I be
Lover or friend
Heart on fire
Forever be
Open until
You come for me.

June 21, 2012

I want to wake up every morning
With sunshine on my face
Songbirds outside my window
And the warmth of your embrace

I want to walk among the forests
Into the darkness deep
Experience a desert's night
And watch you while you sleep

I want to hike with you up a mountain
And bathe with you in a stream
Make love to you in a meadow
Of daffodils and green

I want to roll with you in a snow bank
And run with you in the rain
See all that we've been missing
And never come back again.

Let's run away together
Run far and wide and free
Do all the things we dream to do
Be all we wish to be.

Leave this world far behind
Taking nothing in our pack
Come run with me, let's run away
Never looking back.

June 30, 2012

Little voices
Often said
Useless are
Better dead
Take it now
Feel no pain
See the past
Never again
Run free now
Into the night
Leave for good
No more fright
Little sorrow
Nothing left
Free my mind
That's what
They said
Listen softly
Quiet now
Know no more
Tell me how
Live in peace
Without regret
Days to come
Better yet
Past is past
Whisper free
What's left is now
A better me.

July 3, 2012

Fantasy
Return to me
Take me where
I want to be
Unicorns
Peter Pan
Captain Hook
Never land
Wonderland
Mad Hatter too
Places that
Remind of you
Snow White asleep
By witches trance
Land lost in time
a Piper's Dance
Fairies and
The woodland sprites
Open my dreams
Most every night
I find you there
Inside the wood
With merry men
And Robin Hood
My fantasy world
Where we are free
Together at last
You and me.

July 24, 2012

I know I have no right to you
I can't even ask you to consider me.
I wait in silence, knowing you have decisions to make,
but not wanting to influence them.  
Those decisions have to be yours.  
It is hard being silent.
I want to tell you how I feel.
I want to show you the kind of life you could have.
I want you to be happy.
I want you to experience love.
A true pure love.
An unselfish love,
that wants nothing except to share life with you.
I want to show you that everything you ever thought it could be...can.  
I want so bad to give that to you.
I know in a way it is a little selfish.
Because I know in giving it to you, it will also give to me.
I have it in me.
I have tried to give it away before, yet no one would take it.
No one would embrace it, like I know you would.
But I must wait.
And if you never decide to take the risk, then I will remain as I am.
A friend, always a friend....who will hold you in her heart for eternity.

August 5, 2012

I dream of holding you in my arms
dancing under the moonlight
Falling asleep by your side
I dream of laughing with you
Everyday
And holding each other if we cry
I dream of hiking in the woods
Fishing in a stream
Holding  hands and stealing kisses
I dream of being free
Of living how we choose
Of loving each other till the end
Playing music and singing off key
Building fires in the winter
And keeping each other warm
I dream of a life of joy
Peaceful days
And steamy nights.
I dream of you.  
And what could be.

August 7, 2012

My heart cries out for you today
I feel as if you went away
I see you , though it's not the same
I'm afraid it's the end of the game
I opened my heart a little too much
Let you in where no one had touched
Guess I read the message wrong
And now I feel as if you have gone
I hope it's just my foolish mind
And in your heart soon I will find
My friend as always standing true
Forever always loving you.

August 12, 2012

I lay awake tonight
Thinking of you
Wondering if you are asleep
Or if you are lonely
I miss you, I want to see your face
I want to feel your arms around me
Holding me close
I want to take your pain...
But I know in your pain
You will find the answers you seek
Getting to the other side
Is where you will find your truth
I wonder if your truth
Involves me
I just want you happy
I want you at peace
And if that is without me
That is how it will be
As long as the smile
Returns to your lips
And laughter fills your world
I will be happy, to always be your friend

August 22, 2012

Live your life.
Don't ever let anyone tell you
You can't.
You're not good enough.
You shouldn't.
Do what you LOVE!
Do what makes you HAPPY!
Chase your DREAMS!!
This is YOUR life.
Not your parents, your teachers,
Your friends!
YOURS!
Don't follow because it is easier
DARE to BE!
FEEL every moment.
EMBRACE every experience.
LOVE with your whole being.
Be HAPPY!
Follow your BLISS!
Life is short.
Don't die saying I wish I had,
Be able to say
I'm glad I DID!!
Be with the person who
Brings your JOY!
Who enhances your life!
Who will run beside you
Laugh with you
Sing and dance with you!!
Have no regrets.

Never be afraid to be YOU.

June23, 2012

All the stars up in the heavens
All the beauty of the sea
All the glory of the mountains
This I wish for thee

All the wonder of creation
All your dreams to come true
All the love within the world
This I wish for you

All the happiness and laughter
Peace without an end
All the joys of life forever
I wish this for you, my friend.

March 8, 2012

When morning comes
I shed a tear
For you are gone
No longer here
You leave when dreams
Fade away
When the dawn
Breaks the day
I walk alone
When awake
Yearning inside
My love you will take
I count the hours
Until darkness falls
When sleep will come
And dreams will call
Back in your arms
Once again
Where I wish to be
Until the end

September 3, 2012