who doesn't want to delude himself/herself with the thought that he/she isn't normal? every bond in our DNA screams with the need to be different, to stand out and yet, when the actual time of choice comes, where we either end up becoming what we were always meant to be and what we forced ourselves, shaped ourselves into, we, ladies and gentlemen, take the safe road
it's funny how i have always tried to go with the flow, be somebody who is loved by everyone, looked upto, yet, every night when i lie down on my bed, with the sheets beneath me wrinkling with the weight of my unfulfilled dreams and fantasies, all i do is close my eyes and go to a place far from normal
the most deviant thoughts cross my mind, the obscenity of these images in my head make me nauseous because i have made the choice of going against something i was born with
i listen to music, the notes travel up the afferents and then down to my muscles, making each molecule within my body too desperate to dance, yet, all i do is sit and smile, not even letting myself bob my head to the lyrics and compositions filling my ears!
everytime i read a book, i yearn to become the protagonist because she gets to live all that i can only see with my eyes closed
all the work i do in my day, from checking someone's heart rate to listening to the beating pattern of their hearts, placing my fingers over their thrumming pulses and trying to play sherlock with their ailments, i wish to be good at it, with polished skills and a strong will to get better, to become the greatest without even considering the amount of effort i have to put in in order to achieve that
the roles are suffocating, the frustration is overwhelming