Chameleon

Chameleon Jul 2019

Library

He took me with him to do
a quick errand at his College’s campus,
and dropped me off in the library.
A wide, open two story room with
a couple fairly dramatic staircases
and rows and rows of books.
I slowly walked through them,
enjoying that old paper smell,
and scanning for titles I recognized.
My heart would ache when I found
a book I wanted to read,
so I stored the names in my phone.
I hoped I blended in with all the quiet students
who were hunched over their laptops
with a notebook open in front of them.
I found a cozy chair and read the book I
brought with me while I waited for him
to get done.
Feeling more then happy to spend an afternoon
in a library.

Chameleon Jul 2019

Blue suede

I remember that time we were
sitting across from each other in
blue suede chairs listening to
The Eagles and talking.

At one point he paused and said,
“I should’ve gotten up and kissed you. But
the moment is gone.”

We spent a lot of time together
talking about things we should have done.

Until one day he said,
“I should’ve never kissed you.”

Chameleon Jul 2019

Break

Sometimes it’s best to go out to the car,
put the seat back and put my feet up
on the dashboard and just stare at the roof
while listening to a podcast.
Because it’s quiet, I’m alone and it’s mine.

Chameleon Jul 2019

He was cute

I once made out with a guy
I now consider a friend
in front of a bar until he asked
to go back to my place.
I could barely drive because
he couldn’t keep his hands off me.
As I fumbled to unlock the door he
had his arms around my waist,
kissing my neck.
Once we made it to my bed he
kept saying how long he had been
wanting to do this with me,
and then in between drunken kisses
he slurred, I love you.
I actually laughed and said,
No you don’t, you just love me right now.

Just a snippet from the first guy I hooked up with after breaking up with my ex about a year ago.

Chameleon Jul 2019

A nice afternoon

I spent my afternoon drinking
a tall Blue Moon with an orange slice
and reading a book about ****** at
a LaRosas pizza.
I only came in because there was a
neon Budlight sign in the window
and I had time to ****.
I have never dined alone before
out of fear it would be depressing
but this was the opposite.
The restaurant was fairly empty,
I had the bar to myself to just read and
eat mozzarella sticks.

It was a nice reminder that I like
hanging out with myself.

Chameleon Jun 2019

Not a poem

I felt a warm breeze on my back, maybe a perfect 75 degrees. The sky was a little cloudy but I could still see the stars. I was sitting on a broken bench smoking a cigarette, watching the fireworks that someone was setting off a block away. Fireflies danced just above the grass and it was quiet, only the faint sound of light traffic in town. And I was alone. But I was happy to be. Normally I wouldn’t sit outside in the dark by myself because I don’t want to become a true crime story but it was so nice out. Then the fireworks stopped and I finished the cigarette so I slowly made my way back to the door of my apartment building and went inside.