Chameleon

Chameleon Jun 2019

Find it

Somehow it’s so easy to lose track
of myself.
Don’t seem to notice until it’s too late
that it’s been awhile since I’ve been okay.
So I’ll search for new music,
go thrifting
and start a skin care routine.
Read a book and spend some time alone
and slowly I’ll start to feel like myself again.

Chameleon Jun 2019

Debbie downer

I’m all down in the dumps again,
I can’t escape the grey cloud that chases you down the sidewalk when you’re just trying to enjoy an ice cream cone.
So I switched to Zoloft.
All the money is gone, so is the fun.
My boyfriend is restless for a bigger city, I’m assuming he will dump me.
I still leave behind hairs everywhere I go, I don’t even have to pull them out.
And my future is still on the same path to nowhere.
The same ****, again.
But it’s day one of this new prescription so,
who knows.

Chameleon May 2019

Careful

I’ve spent so much time sitting on the floor, slowly picking through the debris to piece myself back together. I was almost whole again when you showed up and helped find the last few shards of glass to rebuild the mirror I look at myself in. I changed. I’m older, stronger. But even you said I still look broken and I see it too. So please be careful.

Chameleon May 2019

Funny

There are many reasons why I love him,
but the reason I couldn’t stop thinking about him for a week after we met was because he could really make me laugh.

I realized it the first time when we were sitting at a Waffle House at 2 in the morning and we were talking like two old friends and my cheeks hurt from smiling so much.
I knew I wanted to keep feeling like that.

Lucky for me, he did too.

Chameleon May 2019

A lil surprise

I found a joint in my car and
I drove around and smoked
it at 3 in the morning while
on lunch break at work.

I never said I make good decisions.

Chameleon May 2019

Monday drive

It was one of those perfect weather May days,
so we went for a drive.
No real destination, no music or talking just taking in that feeling of freedom only sunshine, and spring can give.

Chameleon Apr 2019

This is nice

We were sitting across from each other under a low dusty lampshade in a bar that had the TV on way too loud but it felt quiet with you.

Lately I just can’t believe how lucky I am to be with him. I am finally in love with someone who really loves me too, and I know it because he shows me every day. I have never been this happy