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Dec 2013 paige v

Liv

Life is a concept that we too often take for granted
drowning in the thought that death would be fitting
but it's not so much that we want to die
rather that we don't want to live

angels don't deserve to die
or to feel this pain
and I truly think that you're an angel
but you let yourself think
that you were quite the opposite

angels can't die
you will forever be alive

Dec 2013 paige v

Friend

Dec 2013 paige v

Liv

Friend

I've had people in the past
who i could call my friends
and people who I truly thought would be there
but it's different with you
you know me just as I know myself
and I know you more than you think I do
I sit and watch as you feel the same feelings
think the same thoughts
and look at people the same way
that I know I do
and it scares me
because I would never wish upon anyone
what has been done to me
but I'll never leave you
like you're just so used to
and I hope you'll stay
and we can fight together
this incliment weather

Dec 2013 paige v

Walt Whitman said it better.

Dec 2013 paige v

Stella Gamber

Walt Whitman said it better.

The first time I kissed a girl her tongue was coated in morphine and I’ve been chasing that high ever since. I tried to replace it by soaking my brain with prescriptions: codeine, dextromethorphan, etc.

A chemical storm raging in my brain; a storm that’s aftermath is present to this day. I still feel the bugs under my skin at night, sometimes the room spins and I remember the revelations I had.

the one most prominent being that this is Hell, that there is no place better or worse than earth, we are in an actual living Hell and that comforts me just as much as it kills me.

Dec 2013 paige v

interchangeable.

Dec 2013 paige v

Stella Gamber

interchangeable.

I can no longer tell the difference between kissing you and wrapping my lips around a bottle of whiskey,

is that your hands on my waist or are the warm sensations of alcohol caressing me again?

I get the spins, can’t think straight, my heart palpitating like I just did a line of blow off your fingertip,

I want you to take me in and sober me up
only to knock me off my feet again when our eyes meet,

I’m a sloppy drunk but I don’t care,
I’ll stumble my way home to you every night if you’ll let me.

- S.G.

Dec 2013 paige v

"Why are you such a good writer?"

Dec 2013 paige v

Cassidy

"Why are you such a good writer?"

People often ask me "Why are you such a good writer?" I reply with a simple statement; My heart has felt many things in which the human eyes can only dream of trying to see.
Most people don't know what it's like to hurt;
I mean to really hurt
Inside
To where your bones become fragile
And the veins that hold your blood
Become cold
To the skin that wraps around you;
A walking
Breathing
Vessel;
You suddenly become grey

Then there you are;
All alone
Left with nothing but your thoughts

With memories from as far as
You can remember

What better thing to do
Then write down the innovative thoughts
That is stored inside ones mind

Dec 2013 paige v

you've made your bed

Dec 2013 paige v

Liv

you've made your bed

they come from a place within us that is plagued with hate
where favorite words are worst nightmares
and torturing becomes a daily routine

they bring you here to make you feel
like there is no one else who can save you now
because here, you have no god
and even if you did, he won't save you anymore

you'll dig inside to try and find what you did wrong
but all you'll find is confusion, regrets and ambiguity
you're walking in circles
digging yourself a grave
all the way to the core of the earth
where you swore to yourself that when you're rotting and burning

this will all end

Nov 2013 paige v

forever

Nov 2013 paige v

Liv

forever

How the hell could you pick me out of a crowd
and notice my crooked hairline
my slightly larger right eye
the scars on my arms
and call them perfectly beautiful
when all I can see are imperfections
that disgust me in the most painful of ways
because that's me, an imperfection
sadness written in bruises
and you know you can't fix it
but you're willing to try
but I promise one of us will get our hearts broken
because I'll ask you to stay forever
and you can't deal with it

Nov 2013 paige v

Stomach Acid

Nov 2013 paige v

Liv

Stomach Acid

I'll never get over this bitter taste
in the back of my mouth
and the slight burning in my throat
how uncomfortable it feels
and how I hate it when it's there

but when it's gone
I want to feel the slightly off feeling
of having a dull razor stuck in my throat
and acid to wash it down

so I make my way to the toilet
to rid myself of this extra weight
and feel what I've been dying to feel

it's not about losing weight