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there's
too much
sugar in my tea
i turned it upside down
but i had drank the cup
and so the nothingness came out
i tried to find another drop that
somehow hid away
and waited
for the water to unsettle all disdain
i heard the kettle whistling, the seconds to be
poured but i could feel myself become the steam that
hotly soared by disappearing perfectly, i'd managed to escape
and even if it burned me up it wasn't by mistake the candy man
would come again, of this i could be sure but company like his i knew
i'd not have to endure i flew above his crystal head and melted in the sky
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became the kind of additive that turned his tea to brine

There is a blessing that I cannot give
I fear if you take it I'll no longer live
I've gotten so close to releasing it still
Knowing i'd vanish once you got your fill
But all of the anger has bled from my bones
And love will restore what my body condones
The moment is here and delaying can wait
Surrender my words before it is too late

Where is any sanity the world told me it had
For everywhere I look I see the creatures going mad
It must be in the water and the air that we all breathe
A kind of animosity that never takes reprieve
To linger there inside is the way for it feed
The appetite of villains who consume your every deed
Protection can be offered but it is not what it seems
An optical illusion that unravels in your dreams
But when they make you restless, the monsters in your head
Insomnia will settle on the weightiness of dread
And under all the pressure every body will retire
Dissevered by the senses and returned into the mire

I must've died a thousand times before I somehow came to find
A boy who knew the same as I
that we belonged inside the sky
And so the days would wander by
We'd gotten close, not asking why
For it was truth that made us fly
Until the middle of July
.
.
.
Our story ceased to carry on
Released our hands and we were gone
Direction put him down upon
The very carriage he had drawn
My voice was harsh, he heard it wrong
I said too much, a denouement
But save the chance he comes along I'll keep my voice to sing our song

times you will escape my mind
and then I'll take

With strangest precision
I made the incision
Inherent decision
Impairing my vision

My search was defined
The day I went blind
It somehow aligned
For me not to find

Fictitious revision
Brought will to submission
A juxtaposition
Arranged inquisition

So speak from your mind
And tick with the time
Awaiting reply  
You tarry, you die

Awoke
one
night
to
find
myself
inside
the
strangest
room

Or
was
it
mine
I
couldn't
tell
my
head
became
a
tomb

I put away my body's bones and let my thoughts deny
The only voice I ever knew was my unhallowed cry

Unconsciousness had settled in and once again I slept
Of sanity, of any dream, of any peace bereft

Astray I went meandering to lock the open doors
And in the place that I had been I saw them on all fours

The foam continued pouring out from deep inside their traps
I stood there watching 'til the fear had caused me to collapse

So
cyclical
it
seemed
to
be
how
long
before
I'm
dead?

With
barking
banter
beckoning
I'd
join
them
in
their
bed

take your (he)art away, don't let them take your heart.

more than anything, I want to know you're here.



Speak.

Was freshly laid upon the b e d
a pillow rested 'neath her h e a d
And it was colored black and b l u e
recounting days involving y o u
Your story she had never h e a r d
yet seemed to swallow every w o r d
And in her sleep she made it k n o w n
that she was gone but not a l o n e
And when your hand would turn the p a g e
she'd once again endure the r a g e
The sheets you used to cover u p
was metaphor for all the l u s t
But one day soon she will be b l e d
be freshly laid upon the b e d

A traveler once came to me to tell me where he'd been
But every word that left his tongue would land upon my skin
Internalizing what I did had not left any space
And so the pressure climbing on just settled on my face
Expressions changing all too fast I started losing ground
Collecting only ***** air that morphed into a sound
And when I opened up my mouth it made its way inside
A deafening cacophony was crashing like a tide
The flood I felt was something like a temporary rest
Accumulated over time I couldn't seem to test
And then I knew, I understood the purpose driven fall
The plan my shaking hands had drawn was bowing to the call

I wonder why the people here have planted all these
trees
With roots so deep inside their heads, grown in through
memories
The branches form a canopy, a place for light to
rest
In dormancy procure a way to lay upon your
chest
Forgotten words once kept within will open up your
core
And so release a perfect tongue not spoken
a
n
y
m
o
r
e

thoughts that you have kept
surround your heart, instill regret

Forge a line upon the vein of everything alive
A ceiling for the blood to touch when you are in your mind
The walls are four, foundation gone, and yet your structure stands
Even though you hold it now with shaking bluish hands
Commit to this and you will see that as the seconds pass
The marble stone you once possessed no longer stays in tact
And as the remnants dissipate they mix with flesh and bone
To resurrect the paradigm that you can be your own

as I was walking in your shoes you put your feet in mine
paralysis took over and you rested on my spine
I moved as though I knew the pain was lulling you to sleep
and so I focused on the road I saw in front of me
a carrier of many things
I kept you closest still
for I could not submit myself to any other will
I let the salt from everything flow out of both my eyes
in daily liberation from the questioning, the whys
to have you here reminding me that we are still the same
is all I need to get us through and hold you in my frame

so many conversations in my head

it's like I never

I'm falling into
all the
holes in
everything you say

because I walk
beside the
one compelling
me to sway

but when the
wind has left my
skin I hide
it in my
lungs

and taste the
breath of life
each time I
saturate my tongue

my open lips
release a
tune I do
not comprehend

that manifests itself to me
in ways I
can't descend

it only lasts
but long enough
for me to hear the sound

of something
coming closer still
of feet upon the ground

and that
is where it all
begins and clarity returns

as I am climbing
out of you
without a single burn

.
..
..
The moment I laid eyes o   ..   n you I couldn't turn away
And I began to see yo  ..   ur face in every single day
The time it took to mem   ..   orize the color of your eyes
Distracted me from noticin   ..   g the weakness hiding mine
But now that I have come to kno   ..   w the role that you have played
I stand prepared to walk away   ..   from things in which I've stayed
My heavy, dark and weary h   ..   eart had almost ceased to beat
For close I came to welc   ..   oming the lunatic in me
..
..
.

I went about the earth today and tried to hide my pain
But planted it in everything and felt it like the rain
As time collapsed upon my head I stumbled to the tick
Unable to convince myself I can't keep up with it
The broken glass had gathered at the bottom of my feet
And every shard I walked upon took more away from me
In this is life, I told myself, remove what made you ache
Allow the blood to cover you the moment you awake

I couldn't see the world the night I saw your face instead
And somehow came to memorize the places in your head
You must've known these very roads would pave their way to me
Or at the very least prepared for time to let it be
So as the skies that you have kept awaken with the sun
The light reflected in your eyes will render me undone

I cannot bear the thought of you on someone else's lips
Your name to them a universe in annular eclipse
I say this now because I know that time already spoke
  
And whispered something I refused to tell you when you woke
So here I sit and watch the sky reveal before my face
The very message I have kept but never could erase

I sat beneath the window sill and painted with the light
The colors mixed accordingly, my images took flight
And as I watched them disappear, ascend into the clouds
I noticed how the symmetry reflected all my doubts
And so it was, my counterparts had finally aligned
It didn't matter where I was or what I left behind
For anything the distance claimed was taken as a pawn
And given back eventually, thus never really gone
So when the sun would recreate horizons in my eyes
I'd see the world for what it was, completely undisguised

A screen was posted on a wall, the corners of my mind
Were stretched so very thin indeed, reverberating time

And vapid personalities then danced upon the veil
Attempting to impose themselves as those who never fail

In perfect step with everything, their tendencies align
Allow for new anatomies to form upon their spine

Collect, repel, reorganize with regular delay
I cannot tell you what's become of every single day

To calculate would take too long, the change of pace too much
And I've become immune to what is parallel to touch

See, I have learned their song by now, I've memorized the beat
Its rhythm pulses fervidly, intensifies the heat

The space is filled with every breath of those who write the notes
A call to those who cannot keep the music in their throats

There spun a world above my head and I could enter
it
At any time I wanted to, whenever I saw
fit
At first it was a rendezvous, a place that I would
go
To take reprieve of circumstance that I was born to
know
And then the strangest thing occurred, I managed to
perceive
That I was still in spinning state the moment I would
leave
And so began the era of my physical
demise
For all I needed to survive was just a pair of
eyes
Behind the visage of my thoughts I dug a perfect
hole
A buried bed, a grave, a tomb, the epitaph - my
soul

what remains is equal to the value of the null

The dust has settled on my skin and I no longer feel
But since I can't make sense of this I find it may appeal
And though I'm dragging both my feet to keep your hand in mine
I still believe the roads we walk were mapped by hands of time
You stuttered once and spoke my name, I wonder if you knew
That shivers traveled down my spine and turned my body blue
And all the pressure they released pushed blood into my head
Illuminating all the more, once subtle shades of red
My eyes began to harden as a gloss upon them formed
And how I had perceived myself then gradually transformed
In looking out upon the world, my harmony complied
And everyone could hear me ask my memories to hide
So come replace what you began to form within your mind
And use the flesh I've harbored thus to get the bones to bind

meet me in the moment and carry me away
tell me there are better things in store for us today
tell me you're a dreamer, night can be our guide
we can live inside our heads, a place for us to hide
space will claim our bodies and bind them in a knot
keep them where the people are but never let them rot
time is not the issue, granted we're asleep
riding out infinity like rivers running deep
synchronized completely, a level playing field
fluid rationality is finally unsealed

You found a hole inside my head and covered  it with thoughts
Then watched the ways that I'd respond whenever I got lost
Insipid mind I deemed my own, according to your words
The ones that kept on telling me it is as I have heard
Convinced I'm in agreement with the arguments you've made
I place my arms beside myself and take my life away
And what remains before your face is nothing but my shell
An empty vessel you can fill with every kind of hell
So test it out and draw, design, my flesh is but a tool
That I may choose to leave behind for someone else to rule

I had no intention to make anything at all
So I took out my hands and let every motive fall
And staring at the brine I delivered to the earth
I began to wonder if my water held a worth
If ground was all it touched and converted it to clay
Then wouldn't I just sink in the sediment each day
Molded into nothing like the effort I put in
I would face the sea and be swallowed by my skin