I wish it would be easier to seek The Way, I Am
but Life has no intention of acknowledging your plan
the days you walk are numbered and the breaths you breathe are stored
in places you will never see unless you be reborn
your body’s made of ashes that will disappear in Time
your Soul is made of Fruit that hopes Forever stay Alive  
consider what you say and then consider what you do
are you the kind of human who would stand beside of you?

I watch your intention become you
and want to be perfectly clear
you’ll never be more than the people
you’ve stolen from over the years
I’ve learned to expose what you’re thinking
and it doesn’t sit well with me
so why don’t you take all your anger
and drown it out into The Sea?
Its Salt will recover your body
Its Waves will speak into your soul
lest anything you took for granted
saved face so your life could look whole

today I found a poem You had hidden from my mind
but now that I’ve drawn closer I can see it in my eyes
and every Word revealed to me is changing who I am
relentlessly pursuing every detail in Your Hands
The Light I’m letting in is singing lullabies to me
the kinds of songs my childhood has saved to memory  
they paint my mother’s heart in tones of elegance and grace
they bring me to my knees where I begin to seek Your Face
today I found a poem You had written long ago
and now that I am ready, You are here to watch me grow

I want to be stronger so I can be weak
to learn The Whole Plan that The One has for me
I want to be scattered to pieces of dust
so I can resemble The Face of Your Love
I want to be heavy so I can see Light
until all of my fears have gone out of sight
I want to know people I’ll need to forget
so I leave them the way they were when we met
I want to feel Seasons inside of my Soul
I long to be Yours as I long to be Whole

I met you when the summer Sun was hottest in the sky
the center of a season come, the middle of July  
I dreamt about the ocean but I found you by the sea
and that is how I know you are a salty fish like me
you swim around the people but you always make it Home
for there is nothing better than to be, and be alone
the people in the water have been drowning all their lives
but you and I are floating, we have opened up our eyes

The Sun has kept His every word He ever said to me
so here I am relearning to accept what I can’t see
my eyes have tempted every day without my own consent
but now that I have closed them all my fears have up and left
my body is no longer now the way that it once was
(a flower in a field to be picked up by anyone)
I laid myself on soil no one possibly could find
where I can be at peace in every corner of my mind

the sea is inside of my body
The Sun and The Moon are my eyes
I’m salt and I’m water forever
Your Truth I could never deny
.
propensity bites at my person
intention gives strength where I lack
I mute all the voices around me
so I can hear Yours calling back
.
I know the sound of Your Story
like I know the beat of my heart
and rather than go on without You
I’ll hope You will never depart