“I want to know all I can possibly know”
said someone in passing to me long ago
and now I hear voices inside of my head
that lead me to places and leave me for dead

I beckon to silence and ask it to speak
to render me strong when I feel I am weak
but all I can hear is the sound of my mind
inflicting confusion and making me blind

my heart is an altar that barely exists
the foam of a tide in a sea of my sins
dishonesty begs me to never confess
but here I am bleeding my thoughts nonetheless

if I can continue on living more days
I hope to use time to change all of my ways
and not to be selfish, and not to be *****
but only to do what Your will has me do

the stars were burning holes into the late October sky
I asked them for a reason but they couldn’t tell me why
by stealing from the Sun the nights came longer, darker still
and with them went my every bit of human power’s will
I reckoned with my follies but the numbers hurt my head
and much as I desired to I couldn’t lay them rest
if one said I was capable the other said I’m not
“for everyone and everything’s susceptible to rot”
I couldn’t find a match to spare except the one in hand
set fire to my body, how much longer can it stand?

why do the days feel like they’re blended in one?
like Sunday to Sunday I can’t see the Sun?
perhaps it’s because all my loyalty lies
in every hour the night passes by
I feel like a shadow that doesn’t exist
that takes on its form when there’s nothing that is
I bide too much time as a shepherd who sleeps
and sees not the wolves who’ve their eyes on the sheep
I scurry and shiver because of my skin
remembering Truth’s all the while within
too much be distractions in every day
and many the voices that make it this way
but if you can settle your heart on just One
you’ll never be shaken by other ones come
defeat can be tragic should ache it your bones
but Victory’s spoken: “you’re never alone”

should you have the time, may I give you mine?
let us speak of Life, let us not divide
everything you are, I am made of too
more than I am me, more than you are you
pieces of the sky carry every heart
far beyond the day, far beyond the dark  
Time can be your friend, Time can set you free
come out of your head, move and live and breathe

the sum of every change I see has rendered me the same
though hundred billions pass me by on any given day
I walk through conversations word by word upon my toes
to try to understand the way this body wants to go
I can’t believe my sorrow has protected me thus far
and shown me what it’s like to be exactly where You are
if all I have is blood and sweat then let me sweat in blood
I want to be prepared to meet the Only Face of Love

I went out for a walk today and asked the sky to speak
and every word I recognized changed everything in me
my eyes became the keepers of a message in clouds
and now I can’t go anywhere I cannot see and doubt
my mind can go in circles or in any kind of shape
as long as I can hear You then I know I’m still awake
forgiven every absence and forgotten every fall
I walk into Your Presence like I never left at all

there’re people in this world who may be nothing like they seem
they’re full of good intentions but mistaken for the least
and in their so-called lack of what society demands
they make a mark upon us by the movement of their hands
they know the sound of music and they know what it can do
and in the end they’re humbled by Eternity and Truth
lest any conversation be a second’s waste of time
they’ll speak to you in silence, give you rest & peace of mind