you don't know what's truly in another person's mind
are they just saying these words with lies intertwined?
why can't we decipher the meaning behind every little thing,
it's all left as a mystery and i'm just wondering.
i'm wondering when i can expose my feelings to you,
even though it is long over due,
and you found someone new.
i can't help feeling like there is so much more to say,
but i can't help but push you away.
my defense mechanism is to distance you
only because i don't want you to see the side of me who is still in love with you.
this is unhealthy for me to do,
but i can't help that i still care, i do.
but as you lay in another person's arms,
it's hard to say this but i hope you're happy.
i knew things couldn't stay the same,
which is why when we were together i cherished every moment that came.
i'm going to miss how close,
how almost,
how far we came.
-a.g.
this poem was from a while ago. looking back at it i am embarrassed bc i didnt know my worth & how someone should treat me.