⩤ MY TOUCH IS ⩥

☆ BLACK AND ☆

⩤ POISONOUS ⩥

its gotten to the point where ive been hurt so many times

i can say

im used to it

but out of all the people

who could have beaten me down

                                    ripped me apart

                                            made me feel less than worthy

why did it have to be
                                    you?

are you happy?

.she hides all her problems behind a smile.
                                                behind her smile is a world of pain and hurt.
       you think you know her,
but you really have no idea

gentle is the night.
the morning light
is too sharp for sight.
batlike, i shall hide,
waiting for the moon to rise.

painful arrhythmias
it arrived the way you left
in total silence

"you've been strong for too long"

you say i am made
of stardust but the truth is
i am starstruck by you

i don't know what i want

make me smile

don't

make me sad

the
future
will be
confusing

"die *****"


"you don't deserve to live"


"you're such a waste of space"


"why don't you just die?"




...

anything hurts


less than the quiet

im not gonna be there
to catch you every time

you were my everything
but
i wasn't anything to you

the future is ours

i no longer know
if i wish to drown myself
in love,
*****
or the sea

some days,
i feel everything at once.
other days,
i feel nothing at all.

i don't know what's worse:
drowning beneath the waves
or dying from the thirst

this brush is slipping,
so i will mouth these words,
fourteen years muted,

"i love you, Hor Chun,"
decorated in sequins, silk
and scarves of incense smoke
like the dolls in Honk Kong
windows.

reel back these strings; weave
a dress of blood silk, a veiled
headdress, a ring.

find me on the next freighter home.

wish you would look here
said the invisible man
but no one noticed

​
I am drowning.
In liquor and apathy.
Will be the death of me.
But so what if I drank too much.
This ain't love, it's just a firefight.
And even if it's not enough.
I'll say it once I swear I never lied.

maybe one day someone will come into my life and actually mean what they say

死んだほうがいい

.i don’t know where to begin
.how it began
.how it ended
          .all i know is that i am here
          .here right now. and that is all that matters.

.

don't tell me what to do

you don't own me

i want someone to need me.






is that so bad?

we all need an escape sometimes

hidden desires
craving warmth
hunger for love

"i suggest we get monumentally ****** up"

its funny how artistic
we become when our
hearts are broken

if you ever meet someone who makes your life flow easier and makes you laugh a lot, keep them. that's all you need.

everything will fall into place, you just gotta be patient..

​
you tell me that you’re sad and lost your way

you're just a boy that i used to know,

nothing more than a stranger.

you make it sound so sweet
when you lie to me

i fill my notebook
with words and
drawing of you,
me, and us.

i look back at the
moments we had
shared, back when
we used to be     'us'

Your lips tasted like alcohol that night, and since then I can't stay sober..