it happens all the time.

I'm alone in a hole in the ground
when I'm afraid, I lose my mind

but it's okay, it's fine.

you thought
i could be
your friend

when you didn't have a problem leaving
and when i am here grieving

because nothing ***** more than feeling
all alone.. no matter how many people are
around.

my                                                                                                     bitter,

                             walk

                                                started to change.

                       leaving

bones turned gold

                                 wind
                                          shattered

I vanished.

tell me that we belong together

been running

without looking back

    when the reality hits me

please be my guidance

can anyone make this pain stop?

ive fallen for you laugh,
which is utterly contagious
i've fallen for your smile
which makes me giddy for
no reason at all. i've fallen for
our late night talks, when 1am
arrives far too quickly. i've fallen
for our jokes, which ill remember
days later and burst into laughter.
i've fallen for how you can make
my day better, even if i wanted
to cry a minute before. i've fallen
for every second i get to spend
with you, even if those seconds
will always leave me wanting more.

i've lost myself
in the sea of faces
and pool of words

i've lost my words
because she stole them
from my mouth.

i've lost you
to her because
i was too late
to get you back

i've lost my heart
in the empty streets
of the road we used
to walk together

i've lost to her,
once again and
i let myself go

hide the truth
i wanna shelter you
but with the beast inside
there’s nowhere we can hide

exactly what i felt
but somehow
the paper stayed empty

and i could not have
described it any better

he says.

before you left

i wish i was
                      thinner
                      prettier
­                      smarter
                      good enough for someone

i wish you
                   noticed me
                   cared
                   loved me the way that i am

but i know that it would never happen.

because why would someone like you,
love someone like me?

i wish for the
ground to
swallow me

i wish i was
gone from
this world

i long for my
death, to
vanish from
this world

that i do not
belong to

You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness

I thought that
the best of me
comes out
when I am with you.
But I was wrong.
It seems that
the best of me
was you.
It was always you

i'm jealous of people who can
      say that they are comfortable
              with who they are because
                       it took me forever to be
                               where i am now and
                                      i'm not even happy

it's hard for me to say

i'm jealous of the way

*you're happy without me

​
if i were to fall, would you catch me?

if I can make time for you

       why don’t you give the same for me?

"humans have a
*knack for choosing
precisely the things
that are the worst for
           *them."

"it *****, doesn't it? feeling like you're not good enough."

this is what happens when
you play with my feelings

i get into my feelings
i start reminiscing ‘bout you

it's very important for human beings
to feel they are popular and well-liked
                     amongst a large group of people that we don't care for

its july,
i miss june.
or maybe i just miss you.

The moon shone against her pearly, white skin.  She shivered as the chilly air surrounded her body.  She took a brave step forward as her arms hugged her frail frame.  A tear poured down her cold cheeks.  She recalled the realization of the day before, when she had found him with another woman.  Her heart burned with anger and betrayal as she spread out her arms into the chilly air.  She swallowed her screams as she opened her eyes to see the angry ocean, thrashing violently against the sharp rocks below.  Her mind was a scattered mess, she was lost, she had nowhere to go, no one to go to.  She was alone.  The world was a cruel place to live in, especially for her.  She had always been invisible, the one that goes unnoticed, the one that no one cares for.  People used her, then tossed her out like a rag doll.  Her eyes closed tight as she took a step forward.  She braced herself for impact, for the ocean to swallow her in, as the darkness had done to her mind.  But nothing came.  No pain nor any impact.

he convinced her to jump
promising that he'd catch her
but as soon as she started to fall
he was already turning
around

i sit at the
edge of the
cliff, thinking

pondering over
my mistakes of
thinking that you
were in love with
me.

wandering what
would happen if
i jumped.

what would you
do if you heard
that i had jumped.

how would you
react if you heard
that i had jumped.

would you even
care?

would you spend
a minute thinking
about why i had
jumped?

i stand at the
edge of the cliff,
gathering up all
the memories,
everything last
moment that
i had spent with
you.

i took everything
and let it flutter
away.

then
         i
            jumped

just a few words
can change how
you think or do
with your life.

just a few actions
can change how
you act around
people and how
they act around
you.

just a few minutes
can change your
life to something
new.

"we looked at each other a little too long to be 'just friends'"

whether it's
alcohol
drugs
self harm
or whatever

"just three"
always turns into
"just six"
which turns into
"just twenty"

and before you know it
you''re in too deep
you can't even control it
your own mind

you just
cut
drink
smoke
purge

and i cannot be stopped

i always catch myself thinking about you

​
Rain pattered as if they were tap-dancing on the cool glass window. Dancing with one another as they kept a steady beat.

i sometimes imagine
what would happen
if i jumped off this cliff.

would anyone cry?
would anyone care?
would you care?

i wonder how you
would react if i
ended it all.

i doubt you would
even give a glance,
since you left me
for her, why would
you care?  

though it hurts me
to remember that
day, when you told
me that it was all
just a game.  

just a game..
just a game.

so earning my
trust and taking
advantage of
me was just a
game?

i was just a
puppet for
you and your
silly 'games'?

you made me
a puppet, so
you could cut
all the strings
and throw me
away, just like
a rag doll?

i carefully lift
myself up and
walk toward the
edge.  

step by step,
i feel myself
fade away.

i feel myself
losing my
sanity as i
keep walking.

i take a deep
breath and
fall.  



you said you loved me

but it was all a game
                                    wasn't it.

stupid us thinking we were in love

stupid me thinking i was finally good enough

what did the rectangle tell the pretty circle?