you are always
ticking inside of me
and i dream of you
more of ten
than i don't

the
pretty
lies

-------

the
ugly
truth

knees wobble,
hands shake.

words tumble,
smiles fake.

heart racing,
nervous pacing.

sentence stutters,
voice falters.

feeling dizzy,
cause you'd see me.

don't allow your wounds to turn you into someone you are not

he cries,

'i want her back'

'she's breaking inside'


'i know it'


'it's all my fault'


              my fault

she's wearing someone's skin
and you fell for it again
but love is just pretend

she feels eyes on her back,

she knows it's him but she

doesn't look back because

his laziness built
the pyramids

and
his solitude
was a
knife

you may not be
pushing me away

but you're not
fighting for
me either

physically i am fine

emotionally i am bruised

netanorphosis
to die in a chrysalis
to live once again

​
its all just a facade
just a cover
just a mask
to hide behind
while the real me
the true me
hides, cowers back
avoiding reality
the real world
the cruel world
trying not to get hurt
i hide behind words
and bury my feelings
-

until then.

"and my heart will feel heavy in your absence,

as i lay there awake

at night wondering where you are

and who you're with and did you

finally find what i couldn't give you,

even when i tried."

happiness is expensive

am i that easy to forget?

​
the sky looks sad

i wish you would say my name

           just to hear how it sounds
             (from those lips)
                        (your lips)


; i wonder how i taste
           (like coffee, or rain?)


                        and if you'd say it again
                           (and roll me on your tongue)
                    , whispering at the delicacy.





                                                                                     (you taste like cinnamon.)

you think i'm scared of death..
but i've done it a million times.

see you at the bitter end...

you chug that 5th of alcohol by yourself

&

everyone around you is too busy cheering to wonder how empty you had to be in order to do it

Love steals away your happiness, and leaves you there to drown

“i was thinking”

“about what?”

“those strange, irretrievable days”

her wrists look like a
horror story, yet her lips
taste like poetry.

i hate seeing couples,
all giggly, happy, and perfect

because i know that would
never happen to me.
never.

take a hit
and let it all out now

i miss the old happy me

no words can describe
how you make me feel inside
no words can define
what you do to me
no words can explain
how i feel about you

so still, the world barely breathes,
the moon has painted with silver
the castle on the mountain top.
who within it has the calmness of heart
to watch the star-filled night?

the scratch in your voice

leaves me no choice

and i wont give up,

and i cant give up.

"I love you"

when you realise it’s

your responsibility to be

a leader and create the

world that you want to see,

you have to do it.

i want to feel whole again