​
i just can’t give up on you

it takes a breath and comes to life
with every new born cry
and echoes in the laughter
of the children running by

​
“i just want you here
by my side, is that
too much to ask?”

my body's had enough

when i hold you
i hold your heart

im not sure which
is worse..missing
you, or the fact
that there's nothing

i can do about it

they take a fall, and see who catches them and who will not.  

if they do not catch you, someone will come across you and pick up your broken pieces and sew them back together.

we all
fall down
sometimes

i feel like I'm falling through the air, like I'm weightless, falling down, down
falling through a bottomless pit.  no one is there to catch me'
or stop me from falling. i just keep going down, down, down.
come to think of it, i had a dream like that yesterday.
my dreams are weird. i don't feel scared or anything
i feel free when i dream like I'm in another dimension, another world.  where i can be myself, and not follow rules.
i don't have to worry about people judging me.

the rain falling
reminds me of you,
because it is falling hard
am i am too.

who said that falling
out of love was not something
that made us better

favorite color?
black

im always suspicious of anyone that finds me attractive

​
forget everything and run
face everything and rise
**** everything and rebel

I fear life

i was feeling happy
today until my fears
and doubts clouded
my mind and left me
in a dark room.

fears and doubts about
if i was going to be able
to graduate high school
or even go to college.

fears and doubts about
if i would find anyone
that would care for me.

fears and doubts that if
i was ever going to be
my parent's good girl.

but i don't want to be perfect
but i don't want to be a failure
      
fears and doubts cloud
my mind and poison
my body and drowns
me with nowhere to go.

smile.


no one cares how you


                       feel.

"i feel like i don't know you anymore"

​
feel good,
feel new,
feel pure
feel good.

i’m too shy
to tell you
how i feel

so i’ll hide behind
timid smiles and
soft hellos

i’m afraid
if i ask you
“what do you think
of me?”
your reply will be

                                                          “i dont.”

ah dreams,
those luminous meteors
    that light the night skies

of our consciousness
   their own reality.

fall in love with the person who made you believe in soul mates when you had no hope there was anyone in this world who was right for you.

nobody ever fins
the one.

the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill

nothing else
fills.

i cant get over
how our first meeting
was a head on collision
and our final division
was a tear soaked shirt
and a too tight hug

i miss you in the morning
when at first i wake
your voice and smile
are with me
with every more i make

i feel so nice, mom
i feel so nice

i feel so free, and..

beautiful

do all people feel like this, mom?

do all people feel beautiful?  

i’ve never felt like this before.

it feels…good

you said you would fix me.

but you broke me instead.

grab a plate and throw it on the ground

       - okay, done.

did it break?

       - yes.

now say sorry to it.

       - sorry.

did it go back to the way it was before?

       - no.

do you understand?

I would tell you that you were
beautiful but that is such an
understatement because your
beauty is indescribable

only fools fall for you

and

i guess i was a fool to
                                    fall
                                          for
                                                you

deep green forest
cool misty breeze
silent breathing
closed eyes
nature

nature is calling me

and i answer back

youth is like a never-ending maze

youth feels like being alone in the deep blue sea

youth can be overwhelming



but also



youth is fighting for what you believe in

youth is friendship

youth is freedom

​
you are not your age,
nor the size of clothes you wear,
you are not a weight,
or the colour of your hair,
you are not your name,
or the dimples in your cheeks,
you are all the book you read,
and all the words you speak,
you are your croaky morning voice,
and the smiles you try to hide,
you’re the sweetness in your laughter,
and every tear you’ve cried,
you’re the songs you sing so loudly,
when you know you’re all alone,
you’re the places that you’ve been to,
and the one that you call home,
you’re the things you believe in,
and the people that you love,
you’re the photos in your bedroom,
and the future you dream of,
you’re made of so much beauty,
but it seems that you forgot,
when you decided that you were defined,
by all the things you’re not.

fake people are a waste of time

fantastic to feel
beautiful again

no one is free
even the birds are chained to the sky

im full of hate
im full of disgust
im full of tears
im full of fear
im full of sadness
im full of pain