one of the best feelings is finally losing your attachment to somebody that isn’t good for you.

occupation:**    


                         *family disappointment

the truth is under your eyelids

comfort me
     on

                  *every side

SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK ON
ALL THE GOD DAYS AND
MISS YOU
AND THEN I REMEMBER
WHAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH
AND STRANGELY
I MISS YOU EVEN MORE

is it desire

or

is it an illusion

i swear it was not my
choice.

i used to be so kind.

​
how many nights have you wished someone would stay?
lied awake only hoping they’re okay?

i never

want to

forget

they look like the
wiry legs of spiders


splinters of her
******* in his bed

and the trees are sentinels
of something, standing
there between the buildings
breathing like horses
all night

sometimes all you can do is lay in bed,

&

hope to fall asleep before you fall apart..

i used to wonder
what i would be doing
in ten years

but now i wonder
if i will still be here

do you regret the things we shared?

the things i'll never for
                                        get

i aint scared of the fall
i have felt the ground before

"we're weirdos,
                           *and that's who we are.
*and it's fine."

you kissed me
when i was crying

and maybe that
made me sad

because how can
you love so well

when the person
you love is bad

she lost control

​
i tried to wash you away
but you just won’t leave

​
all i do is cry and complain
cuz the thoughts won’t go away

It's so sad and frustrating when you try your hardest but people still don't find it good enough.

tonight i am sad
tonight i am lonely
the demons are screaming
and i need you to hold me

you were the
song stuck in
my head

​
save me from myself
because i am slowly
but surely
killing myself
from the inside out
these thoughts, are so overwhelming
that living is frustrating and maddening.
but what hurts
is when you go tell someone your
feelings
they tell you, that your depression
is a “phase”
it’s not
I’m ugly, i hate myself
and unfortunately
i want to die

why do i keep doing this to myself?

​
it carves into my hollow chest,
and spreads over the emptiness

​
-
i love the creases that your forehead makes when you throw your head back in laughter and joy. the crinkles in your eyes when you smile.

​
and even though you left me
in ruins, i hope you’re happy,
because after all, that’s all i’ve
ever wanted you to be

don't see me only as i am


                                                                                 but see me how i long to be

she locks the door

takes a deep breath

and lets all the pain

he's breaking down,

'it's all my fault',

'i'm fine'

do you want to run away a great escape