chris: Poems

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chris Jun 2019

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you can’t save me now
sorry
there’s no way out
sorry
i don’t know how
sorry

☆ ☆

chris Jan 2016

☆ ☆

some light can guide you,

but some light can blind you

☖ ☖

chris Jan 2016

☖ ☖

so this is goodbye
the first step of acceptance
learning how to die

☾ ☾

chris May 2017

☾ ☾

at the end of the day,

all we have is who we are.

♝ ♝

chris Jan 2016

♝ ♝

im full of hate.
im full of disgust.
im full of tears.
im full of fear.
im full of sadness.
im full of pain.

♥ ♥

chris May 2017

♥ ♥

one mistake can really

change everything

because in this world,

there’s no turning back.

✃ ✃

chris Jan 2016

✃ ✃

out
of
all
the
people
who
could
have
ripped
me
to
shreds,
why
on
Earth
did
it
have
to
be
you?

✎ ✎

chris Jan 2016

✎ ✎

but
no one listens
to her
'cause
she doesn't have
a pretty face
to match her
pretty mind.

✱ ✱

chris Jan 2016

✱ ✱

how strange is it that after all that

we are strangers again

ᐞ ᐞ ᐞ

chris Feb 2016

ᐞ ᐞ ᐞ

i'm the person my parents warned me about

≎ ≎ ≎

chris Jan 2016

≎ ≎ ≎

she started

drinking liquor

again because

everything tastes

sweeter without

conscious thoughts

attached.

jack daniels

☂ ☂ ☂

chris Jan 2016

☂ ☂ ☂

she
acts
like
summer

&

walks
like
rain.

☂

☆ ☆ ☆

chris Jan 2016

☆ ☆ ☆

i thought we were forever

but i guess i was wrong

☾ ☆ ☆

chris Feb 2016

☾ ☆ ☆

the night is fractured
and they shiver, blue,
those stars,
in the distance.

☾ ☆ ☆

♕ ♕ ♕

chris Jun 2017

♕ ♕ ♕

THEY SAY IT TAKES AROUND 14
DAYS TO BREAK A HABIT.
ITS BEEN 67 DAYS AND YOU'RE
STILL THE FIRST THING I THINK
ABOUT WHEN I WAKE UP AND THE
LAST THING I THINK ABOUT AS I
FALL ASLEEP.
SO TELL ME DEAR; WHAT KIND OF
HABIT IS THIS?

♟ ♟ ♟

chris Jan 2016

♟ ♟ ♟

i lost in the game,
i was just another
pawn in a game.

i was played and
i lost.

i lost you and
i lost myself.

♡ ♡ ♡

chris Jan 2016

♡ ♡ ♡

loving someone with your heart
and loving someone with your mind
are two very different kinds of love

♤ ♧ ♡

chris Jan 2016

♤ ♧ ♡

maybe i doubt it all
because
how could i ever expect someone to love something
that cannot be loved

n.o.w

♧ ♧ ♧

chris Jan 2016

♧ ♧ ♧

carry on,

you know it's going to get better

-sgfg

✃ ✃ ✃

chris Oct 2015

✃ ✃ ✃

"you're so ugly"
i know, and you're right.

"nobody likes you"
why would they?

"i hate you"
i understand, i dont like me either

"just **** yourself already"
*im trying to.

✱ ✱ ✱

chris Jan 2016

✱ ✱ ✱

the water is clean
but your wrists
are stained

.

you face
says happy, but
your eyes say pain

❀ ☠ ❀

chris Jan 2016

❀ ☠ ❀

flowers in her hair
demons in her head
drugs in her veins
madness in her mind
love in her soul
storm in her heart

❀ ❀ ❀

chris Jan 2016

❀ ❀ ❀

"how stupid of me; to think i was the only flower in your garden"

- 6 am thoughts

❣ ❣ ❣

chris Jan 2016

❣ ❣ ❣

"i am short, fat and proud of that"

-winnie the pooh

⦁ ⦁ ⦁

chris Jan 2016

⦁ ⦁ ⦁

the cliffs where we died
i've returned with your ashes
the wind remembers

⫸ ⫸ ⫸

chris Jan 2016

⫸ ⫸ ⫸

"it's like i want
you to look at me,
but i turn my
head every time
you do"

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

chris Jan 2016

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

and if you feel ******,
just remember
that ****** is made of flowers
and you, are made of

stars

♢ ♤ ♧ ♡

chris Jan 2016

♢ ♤ ♧ ♡

you shuffle your cards
and pick a card, and
you play the card,

one after another

you play all your cards,
then shuffle them again.

i was another card in the deck

☆ ☆ ☾ ☆ ☆

chris Jan 2016

☆ ☆ ☾ ☆ ☆

the night is fractured
and they shiver, blue,
those stars,
in the distance

✎____

chris Mar 2020

✎____

they say i’ll be fine without him,
but all i do is write about him

・-・

chris Jan 2017

・-・

these eyes they have seen it all

🌊

chris Jan 2021

🌊

a child who lived
like a spectacular wave
became a sea wall

🔛

chris Aug 2020

🔛

d

🔮

chris Mar 2020

🔮

i've been living in the future
hoping i would get to see you sooner

🚪

chris Mar 2020

🚪

go ahead and
break my heart again

leave me wondering why the hell i let you in

̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿'̿'\̵͇̿̿\

chris Mar 2020

̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿'̿'\̵͇̿̿\

you are the definition of insanity, or am i?

⋲⋺

chris Jan 2016

⋲⋺

there's so much pain in the
question
"are you okay"
that for a moment someone
noticed
the changes in your face
that for a moment someone saw
your mask fade away
that for a moment
you realised
you
     were
           never
                okay

▲▲

chris Jan 2016

▲▲

but if i sit in the rain
maybe i can drown
in something other than
my own thoughts

▼▼

▷▷

chris Jan 2016

▷▷

she was a shooting star,
her smile so bright and rare,
that by the time that you had blinked,
there was no sign it had been there.

-e.h.

▼▼

chris Jan 2016

▼▼

but you knew when she was sad

the circles under her eyes got
darker

the sound of her voice got
softer

the size of her waist got
smaller

and her smile just

*disappeared

▲

◀︎

chris Jan 2016

◀︎

when you've
been sad for so
long that when
something bad
happens you don't
cry, you just sit
there and
feel numb.

◀︎

chris Jan 2016

◀︎

when she embraced the sea
i suppose she didn't think what would become
of her tear-soaked body,
and how her flesh would be stripped from her bones.
she was lost in the feeling of the absolution
she was about to receive. i suppose all her mistakes
were erased with the waves that day.

◁▷

chris Jan 2016

◁▷

i love you so fiercely
and i want you so deeply
that even fires seem
to be burning too sweetly.

kpk

◁◁

chris Jan 2016

◁◁

you are long gone

but i can still hear
you singing in
the shower

as if you still
belong.

kpk