Every night, my eyes lie wide open. The room was dark, already half pass eleven.
Tossing and turning, thinking about him, the attraction.
His face makes my heart pound, strong enough to keep me awaken.
Will your voice ever leave my ears? Because it's worth more than a billion.
Some nights I think, that this is fate. Fate that created our heart's collision.
I would count my fingers, to prevent memories of you from extinction.
"Let me tell you" they would say, "You'll get heartbroken!"
But it's not fair, you're an addictive obsession. Tell me, will there ever be a solution? Your promise on my heart has been rewritten, by you, my heart's guardian.
I can feel it in here, our heart's connection. So sweet...but yet so heavy.
"Why?" I ask, is this the feeling of love? Happiness... But also pain. I can't breathe...I need oxygen. Was this what I'd wanted to know all along? The answer to my heart's eruption? So bitter-sweet...but my realization hit me hard like a javelin.
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Sometimes, I lay awake at night.
The remembrance of you stayed with me like an illusion.
Tossing and turning, trying to fall back asleep in frustration.
The realization of pain filled me with emotion.
All this has made me tired...exhausted.
"Was it a mistake for me to know?" I ask, my new knowledge caused me dysfunction.
I don't know. . . I wasn't able to determine,
"Is it okay to love?" that's the question. I couldn't do it, I couldn't make a decision.
My free will is under mass destruction, was my love for you a fair creation?
I can feel my mind and senses shutting down...my heart and soul has been imprisoned.