chris: Poems

Jan 2016 · 171

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chris Jan 2016

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you don't
get it
okay

it's not
easy for me
to explain

but i'm not
trying to be
lazy, it's just
that i'm so
*******
tired

and i have
no motivation
to succeed and
i don't even know
why
this life is
happening
to me.

Jan 2016 · 81

⩖

chris Jan 2016

⩖

you said you'd always be there for me, but you're not

simba

Jan 2016 · 99

☙

chris Jan 2016

☙

i wonder what it's like

to wake up and love yourself

to look in the mirror and not want to cry

to weigh yourself, see the number, and not want to puke

to be with friends and not feel ugly

to go into public and not be insecure

to go shopping for clothes and not feel fat

i just wonder;

what it's like to love your life.

Jan 2016 · 100

◲

chris Jan 2016

◲

i don't really have any
motivation to do anything
anymore. i don't feel like
wasting my energy on all
the pointless day to day
******* of life. so if you
don't hear from me, i ran
away in my mind. don't
try to find me.

minty green

Jan 2016 · 90

☍

chris Jan 2016

☍

i just want to go far away for some days, weeks
months, years, maybe forever

Jan 2016 · 74

lies

chris Jan 2016

lies

"I'm sorry"
                                                                                                             "i love you"
                                                                                                  "i won't hurt you"
"I'm fine"
"im not mad at you"
"i don't love you"

Jan 2016 · 77

✾

chris Jan 2016

✾

"open up to me, i won't judge you"

                                                      "trust me, i won't hurt you"

"i'll never leave you"

                                                                         "i love you"

                                                                     *the sweetest lies

Jan 2016 · 88

✝

chris Jan 2016

✝

LIES
LIES
LIES LIES LIES
LIES LIES LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES

Jan 2016 · 124

❀ ☠ ❀

chris Jan 2016

❀ ☠ ❀

flowers in her hair
demons in her head
drugs in her veins
madness in her mind
love in her soul
storm in her heart

Jan 2016 · 73

☠

chris Jan 2016

☠

ill try and hide how damaged ive become

Jan 2016 · 92

..

chris Jan 2016

..

the future is ours

Jan 2016 · 184

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chris Jan 2016

{} {}

broken heads
in
hospital beds

Jan 2016 · 100

☂

chris Jan 2016

☂

how could we
be so right and
yet so wrong

?

Jan 2016 · 96

.,

chris Jan 2016

.,

im not gonna be there
to catch you every time

Jan 2016 · 88

☁︎

chris Jan 2016

☁︎

we wanted to be the* *sky

Jan 2016 · 82

✖️✖️✖️

chris Jan 2016

✖️✖️✖️

"i'll never forget you"

"i love you"

"i'll be waiting"

all lies

Jan 2016 · 98

:'

chris Jan 2016

:'

"we're all mad here"

Jan 2016 · 111

--

chris Jan 2016

--

the
pretty
lies

-------

the
ugly
truth

Jan 2016 · 111

,.

chris Jan 2016

,.

we see
what
we want

Jan 2016 · 248

❀ ❀ ❀

chris Jan 2016

❀ ❀ ❀

"how stupid of me; to think i was the only flower in your garden"

- 6 am thoughts

Jan 2016 · 146

☻

chris Jan 2016

☻

here is the
kind of smile
that love songs are
written about

Jan 2016 · 163

☼

chris Jan 2016

☼

the cold,
unfeeling spires
of this
starless city
only serve as
a reminder that
you can't touch
the sky, no matter
how hard you try

Jan 2016 · 140

♌︎

chris Jan 2016

♌︎

paper heat demise
convoluted happiness
ended with sad words

Jan 2016 · 84

✏︎ ✏︎

chris Jan 2016

✏︎ ✏︎

yellowed with age
a journal of poems
never read

Jan 2016 · 97

✇

chris Jan 2016

✇

your face haunts
reliving those final words
another ghost for me

Jan 2016 · 99

☘

chris Jan 2016

☘

she didn't eat
because
she wanted
to be delicate,
like a flower

her soft
skin faded
and her
petals fell

until she
wilted away

Jan 2016 · 83

♑︎

chris Jan 2016

♑︎

you said you'd be back
but then you left like that

Jan 2016 · 154

☕︎ . . . .

chris Jan 2016

☕︎ . . . .

a cup of coffee still sitting there,
i keep telling myself i'll be alright, i won't
i know it can't get worse than today, sitting here
she's trying to rehearse what she'll say,
she's in the bathroom, hoping i'm not in earshot
she's getting used to hearing the sound of her teardrops

splash, i hear it hit the towel

Jan 2016 · 104

☽

chris Jan 2016

☽

her smile is like an
excellently written book
i can't look away

Jan 2016 · 124

☄

chris Jan 2016

☄

i just
need
to get
out of
here

Jan 2016 · 154

⚔

chris Jan 2016

⚔

please don't say
that you love me.
because you never truly did
love me.
maybe you liked,
or even loved,
the thought of being
with me.
but you have never loved me,
you see,
because you destroyed me.

and because of that,
i am sure,
that you never loved me.

Jan 2016 · 72

a short poem

chris Jan 2016

a short poem

he loved me
then i woke up
from my dream

Jan 2016 · 101

⚰

chris Jan 2016

⚰

"i miss you"
"i need you here, next to me, telling me it's going to be okay"

"why did you have to go?"
"it should've been me"

"i love you, and i'll never forget you"

❀ ❀ ❀

Jan 2016 · 110

t

chris Jan 2016

t

"hi, i know it's been a long time and everything but i still love you"

"who are you"*?

Jan 2016 · 141

you

chris Jan 2016

you

i just want to hold
your hand.
and maybe listen to
stories about your childhood
or what you think of
at the end of the
day when you're
all alone in bed.

or maybe this is pathetic and all i
need to do is get a grip

me

Jan 2016 · 148

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chris Jan 2016

| | |

i think too much
and i fall too fast,
like every other
miscalculation

      i've made in the past

-nk

Jan 2016 · 280

✎ ✎

chris Jan 2016

✎ ✎

but
no one listens
to her
'cause
she doesn't have
a pretty face
to match her
pretty mind.

Jan 2016 · 95

⚡︎

chris Jan 2016

⚡︎

it's not wrong to cry

the sky has to rain sometimes

just know that i'm here

Jan 2016 · 104

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chris Jan 2016

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late night frustration

searching for something to write

black paper mocks me

Jan 2016 · 81

☔︎

chris Jan 2016

☔︎

i promised myself*

*i wouldn't cry

Jan 2016 · 99

⚜

chris Jan 2016

⚜

in my head i scream

struggling to hold onto you

with love comes decay

Jan 2016 · 73

☯

chris Jan 2016

☯

you and i

we were
two
lost pieces

looking
for one
another

Jan 2016 · 113

L

chris Jan 2016

L

IM GOING INSANE BUT THAT'S
OKAY BECAUSE MY GRADES ARE
MORE IMPORTANT THAN MY
MENTAL HEATH ANYWAYS

Jan 2016 · 98

♢ ♤ ♧ ♡

chris Jan 2016

♢ ♤ ♧ ♡

you shuffle your cards
and pick a card, and
you play the card,

one after another

you play all your cards,
then shuffle them again.

i was another card in the deck

Jan 2016 · 85

♤ ♧ ♡

chris Jan 2016

♤ ♧ ♡

maybe i doubt it all
because
how could i ever expect someone to love something
that cannot be loved

n.o.w

Jan 2016 · 100

n

chris Jan 2016

n

even my reflection looks
back at me with distaste

n

Jan 2016 · 76

♠︎ ♣︎ ♦︎ ♣︎ ♠︎

chris Jan 2016

♠︎ ♣︎ ♦︎ ♣︎ ♠︎

i wish we could stay in this moment,

forever

Jan 2016 · 81

▼▼

chris Jan 2016

▼▼

but you knew when she was sad

the circles under her eyes got
darker

the sound of her voice got
softer

the size of her waist got
smaller

and her smile just

*disappeared

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Jan 2016 · 122

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chris Jan 2016

▲▲

but if i sit in the rain
maybe i can drown
in something other than
my own thoughts

▼▼

Jan 2016 · 83

✝

chris Jan 2016

✝

i crave your mouth,
                    your voice,
                      your hair.