"you look sad"


"i am"

the ocean is everything i want to be
*beautiful, mysterious, wild and free

"humans have a
*knack for choosing
precisely the things
that are the worst for
           *them."

the worst
thing is
watching
someone
drown
and not
being
able to
convince
them that
they can
save
themselves
by just
standing up.

lost in my
mind;
not the woods.

drowning in my
thoughts;
not the sea

the thoughts are like a tsunami

and I'm completely and helplessly drowning

i lied when i said it didn't hurt

every thought is a battle,
every breath is a war,
and i don’t think
i’m winning anymore.

my hair got longer
my closet got fuller
my parents got older

i got sicker

my arms became a disaster
my heart became colder
yet i was only another year older

but darling,

                  in the end
                  you’ve got to be
                  your own hero,

                  because everybody’s
                  busy
                  trying to save


                                *t h e m s e l v e s

i used to wonder
what i would be doing
in ten years

but now i wonder
if i will still be here

now i am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.

something invisible snapped inside of her

"and i guess,
*sometimes,
people with stars in their eyes
drown
*in the ocean of life"

you haven't cried yet
who knows when you'll get around to it

your heart is a quiver of arrows
because your heart
is a breeding ground
for death.

where were you,
when everything
was falling apart

come back,
please.

tell me

you're sorry.

you were the one who got it all wrong.

you loved me all along.

i no longer know
if i wish to drown myself
in love,
*****
or the sea

sometimes silence is  **violent

i just want you to be happy

i was your ***** and you were my cigarettes

i was your poison and you were my addiction

we we were both each other's greatest regrets

together we sparked but not without creating

friction

i don't know
what's more tragic

that i keep looking for you
wherever i go

or that you're never there

he looked at you like you were
the ocean and he was
desperate to
drown.

come on, lie to me
          make it easy, let me believe

give me a world
     when're you and i
          could exist outside
              these sheets


                                                                                     let me convince
                                                                                     myself that you
                                                                                     could ever lose me

T H E R E ’ S    S O M E T H I N G
B E A U T I F U L   &    T R A G I C
I N   T H E    F  A  L   L    O   U   T

you put a sour little flavour in my mouth now

i love the things you

hate about yourself

just finished a daydream,

who were you trying to be?

⩤ MY TOUCH IS ⩥

☆ BLACK AND ☆

⩤ POISONOUS ⩥

I WAS DRUNK
AND IT DIDNT
MEAN A THING

i know this love is
heading in the same direction
that's up

she
acts
like
summer

&

walks
like
rain.

but who could love me?
                          i am out of my *mind

heroes always get remembered



                  but you know legends never die