I shed tears
Not from fears
Sadness or pain
Let me explain
How the rage
Is like a cage
Anger filled teardrops
While all control stops
Tortured by choices made
As my innocence fades
Consumed by the madness
No longer afflicted by sadness
No longer feeling at all
Tears as I begin to fall
Into the trap others designed
To keep me emotionally blind
Now a tool of aggression
A corrupted savage possession
Wandering lost in the wild
This abused suffocating child
Make your judgement wisely
Be certain when you despise me
Understand why you hate me
Regardless if you truly know me
I continue to search for peace
Tears fall realizing theres no release

Shaking your head
From what I said
The words sting
Describing everything
We threw away
I would stay
But the choices made
Cut like a blade
Betrayal and lies
The love a disguise
For all the pain
With nothing gain
From this affair
I did care
I might seem strange
But things change
Everything comes to an end
You were my friend
Now I must go
If it was real I’ll never know

Don’t trust me
I’ll treat you poorly
This guy standing here
May seem sincere
But I’m hiding
While you’re deciding
To take a chance
To explore romance
With this bad guy
Pointless to try
To change me now
I’ve been lost somehow
My feelings are cold
Gets worse as I get old
I will cause you pain
Drive you insane
With every futile debate
You will grow with hate
When you see my face
Your feelings will misplace
Thinking of every storm deployed
As all trust is destroyed
After every emotional shove
You still try to show me how to love
I just can’t get it
Will cause you to regret it
Even though I wish to care
There’s just nothing left to share

It’s been awhile
Since you cast a smile
Over at me
So let’s see
Are you still down
To play around
Are you ready still
To make time to chill
Look into my eyes
I don’t **** with lies
Open up show no fear
It’s safe within here
No need to worry
Or run away in a hurry
I might seem too bad
I might make you mad
The rumors don’t mean ****
You know gossip don’t quit
Making **** twisted
Keeping this **** tight ******
I will caress your soul
Your mind body the whole
I do everything with passion
It’s just my particular fashion
I don’t have stacks of money
But my life is rich funny
Others label me lame
I’m just me no need for game
******* lips
Let me taste your hips
If not feel my fire
And what it can inspire
I will break you into pieces
Until your misery ceases
You will breathe even more
Rebuild you better than before
Like I said it’s been awhile
Since you shared that real smile
My words aren’t here to beguile
It’s how I communicate my style

Lend me your burden for a while
Just sit back breathe smile
Trust me I know the pain
How it can feel so insane
Taking every blow being tough
Feeling like it’s never enough
Constantly searching for strength
Keeping failure at arms length
Shoulders aching from the weight
Frustration makes you contemplate
If you should go or stay
If caring matters anyway
Heart afraid to confess
That you need a caress
Body and mind aching from stress
In a situation that seems pointless
Hardwork dedication don’t matter
Tired of the gossiping chatter
Searching for peace so high
Searching for truth in every lie
Growing up so fast
Those blissful moments rarely last
Who will understand or care
So what’s the point to share
Just like every poem I create
Who will notice or relate
It’s not wrong to feel
Unless it’s all unreal

Here I stand
With a empty hand
Mind clouded by anger
Surrounded by danger
No more gun for protection
In this house of correction
Only way to make knees buckle
Are my bare knuckles
I’ve enter here alone
Hard as stone
With nothing to lose
And no time to snooze
The haters creeping
Will get you while sleeping
No reform in this gladiator school
Violence and intimidation are a tool
Trying to make that date
Some kind of fate
I suppose my past affliction
Cast a subtle reflection
Of my present way of life
Yet I suffer from different strife
Incarcerated by guilt and pain
Nearly drove me insane
Yet my anxiety still binds me
Eventually I may live peacefully

Here once again
Diving deeper within
Lacking all comprehension
About the tension
Slave to stress
I must confess
That anxiety suffocates
Who can relate
Liquor is numbing
To what’s coming
No more pain
Feeling so mundane
Another pointless high
Time passing by
Another hostile situation  
Holding no reservation
As I contemplate
Each petty debate
Searching for change
My perceptions rearrange
This overwhelming emptiness
Coexists with loneliness
Taking its toll
Consuming me whole