As I lay
In this bed
Thoughts stray
Clouding my head
As she sleeps
So peacefully there
Thoughts still creep
Should I care
Am I content
Is she
All the time spent
Holding each other insatiably
Why do I dwell
Asking silly things
If time will tell
What this may bring
Let it go
She is here
What should I know
What isn't clear

**** another call missed
Nonstop must be ******
What are they doing
What keeps them pursuing
Same time every night
All at the same time can't be right
Is there some reason I can't see
Is the answer escaping me
They're all so different too
Each bringing something new
Eclectic faces and styles
With pretty eyes and cunning smiles
Taunting with stunning curves
They cause my attention to swerve
Not much to our conversations
Just preludes to nightly reservations
Bottles of wine empty so swift
Sticky green burning will uplift
Tension will begin to disappear
The scent of them as they come near
Drives me insane with desire
With each touch ignites into fire
As each different one calls again
I feel out of touch empty within
I should be thankful but I'm not
Living so lustfuly a afterthought
But my cold heart is conflicted
I want change but I'm addicted
To the empty passion I know
But I wonder if my heart can grow
These women don't seem to mind
I'm just out of sight out of mind
A ***** little secret interlude to enjoy
This very very very bad boy

The shackles so tight
Trapped full of fight
Iron digging in
Ripping my skin
Blood drops splatter
I hear chatter
Folded in two
Those slanderous few
Tortuously driven
Shall not be forgiven
When I break free
You will cower expectedly
Just a bit more time
You will be mine
Go ahead inflict pain
I won't complain
I'm getting stronger
This won't last too much longer
Better hope I perish
One thing I cherish  
My vindictiveness shows tenacity
Karma will justly repay your animosity
You should've let it go
I'm a beast soon you'll know
Oops shackles open I'm free
Pointless to run you belong to me
I once showed kindness now it's gone
You should've known better now it's on

Leaves falling sunder
Howling wind thunder
Early morning chill
Everything now still
Rain soaked ground
Sundered leaves around
Footsteps washed away
You didn't stay
The snow covering
Chill still hovering
The frost biting
Seems less inviting
Fire burnt out
Warmth now without
Snow beginning to melt
As how I felt
Chirping birds flying
Nature reviving but I'm dying
The fresh rain dropping again
Cleansing me within
Yet I feel no fire burning
As the seasons keep turning
The heat is beginning to rise
The glaring sun stinging my eyes
Each day feverishly hot but I'm cold
Once again lonely no one to hold
The waves sunder
Crashing sounds like thunder
When you return it will restart
But I will have a chill in my heart

What you said
Stuck in my head
Fuckable not datable
Would have been debatable
But I found it relatable
In my past
Women didn't last
The things I've done
So brief but so much fun
No feelings shared
So romantically impaired
This bad boy meant nothing
A possession or something
I thought it was luck
They didn't give a ****
It nurtured my cold *** heart
Something to toy with torn apart
All the games played
All the indifference displayed
I won't even pretend
It means nothing in the end
But I don't want to die alone
But it's all I've ever known

To be honest
I don't like how you're acting
The way you've been overreacting
Trying to be dismissive and cold
It's becoming old
But I can't tell you how to be
But I can avoid what's negative to me
If youre compelled to be hostile
Being around you is futile
Normally I could care less
Yet it's causing confusion and stress
I would have just shut you out
But you're important to me no doubt
You've helped me reflect
But I'm trying to show respect
But I'm close to not giving a ****
But I do, so i feel like I'm stuck

I don't want a thing from you yeah it's true, the price is too heavy. Forget who I am, move on leave my sight. I really don't want to fight. Your words burn like fire, you I no longer desire, this will be the last poem you inspire. My time being wasted, emotions being wasted, I'm being wasted, every moment with you wasted. I'm sorry you were here to realize that we are through, but I can't stand another second with you. You broke my heart the only thing I asked you not to do. It's cool I don't need a heart, it just made me weak, I should thank you for this gift. Now I can really be that cold ******* you say I've been. As you leave don't look back, just go.