nightMARE

nightMARE Apr 2020

i cannot be nice
i hear gun shots
i see knives
i taste bile
i smell death
every where i go
i cannot be nice

i gt an idea for this from a friend on discord he was imposibly nice
and i notice i cant be like him

nightMARE Apr 2020

i cant do this anymore
im almost out of power
i cant do this anymore
i feel like a crumbling tower
i cant do this anymore
im always feealing like a caword
because i feel and i wish i didn't

nightMARE Apr 2020

i cant live without music

a single song can make me forget
for a little while
that im completely empty.
the music fills me
but its not plenty
and im still nothing
on the inside .

nightMARE Mar 2020

I miss you

Everyday I hope to see you walking your dog in front of my house

I feel like someone tried to douse
me in freezing cold water

I miss you

The skies are blue
But they feel purple
An endless night
I can’t fight
For anything

If I can’t fight for you

nightMARE Mar 2020

why wont it stop

how come it won't stop
I asked nicely
I yelled, I cried,
I suffered
and it still doesn't stop
it hurts me
it makes me scared
it makes me sad
please
make
i
t

w
o
n
t

s
t
o
p

thank you all for reading my poems

nightMARE Mar 2020

video games

I like to play video games to keep out the pain
I like to play video games to keep out anxiety
I like to play video games to keep out depression
and when those video games crash
I'm left with no protection
I'm left with my thoughts again
and as I rot in my prison of sadness
I notice I have you to heal my wounds
I notice they are too deep to heal
and I am left alone with video games
.

I suppose some may relate.

nightMARE Mar 2020

Love is hard

its torture but it
heals
it's happy but it
hurts

I wrote this in morse code the first time but I kind of gave up the idea.
but its the only way to really captivate not understanding a thing about love.

#love