you make me happy
it's hard to be happy
you make me want to live
it's easy to want to die
I don't wanna cut myself when you make me happy
I love you

I can fake it
I can't make it
happiness so hard to get
I want to forget
without it you start
dying slowly

i don't want to get up
i want to sleep forever
i want to forget the pain
i want to just sleep
i want to never wake up
i just want to give up
i just want to sleep forever
i don't want to wake up

i know that waking up will just hurt

I know its there
it won't leave me alone
it's in my head it won't go away
it's with me when I'm on the phone
I don't want to go home
because they may see through me\
they may see I can't stand it
they may see that I'm not as okay as my smile says i am
they may see I'm ready to burst
its as if I was cursed
it hurts i want it gone
it won't go away
it's the thoughts in my head at school
it's the pain that won't leave with a band-aide
please
I want it gone


but it won't go away

it is nothing but a feeling I tell myself.
but I cannot continue repeating.
I still feel dry even if I cry.
and yet I still want to die.
I cannot live with these feelings.
so many different meanings dancing in one head.
but I can only say one thing to keep my self from breaking.
that I will see you the next day I will hear you saying that I'm still okay.