yes im happy with them

yes im scared to hold hands with them

yes i kissed them in the bathroom.

i did things with them that we did.



why won't you get over the fact that im over you?


that i dont want you in my life anymore?

now i have a headache

i can’t do this anymore


i want to die

everything hurts and i don’t know what to do

the acid in my stomach is ****** and it ******* hurts dude

I believe the lies you tell

because I want to believe that you're okay.


I know you're not okay.


I know you're hurting.


Just- please tell me so I can help you.




You know I can't lose someone else.

nice

maybe it was a bad idea getting into a relationship with you


cause now you come off as toxic and i'm being pulled by both sides

******* *******,
thinking you can just come back,

take my spot,

and act like nothing happened.

YOURE A *******

YOU RUINED MY LIFE

I COULDNT GET OVER YOU BECAUSE I STILL LOVED YOU

DONT ACT LIKE YOURE MISS PERFECT


besides,

you’re telling everyone i’m not over you.


news flash, i am.



don’t ever ******* look at me or do that again.


you’re a *******.


stop acting like you didn’t do anything wrong.



that day i lost my girlfriend, now ex, and a best friend.



what happened?


what ******* happened to being best buds like that?



it’s nothing eh?


we’re nothing.



that all meant nothing.



*******, don’t go near me or my friends ever again

i hate that i feel this way

“do you want to make a safe plan just in case”

“are you hurting yourself”

questions i don’t wanna answer

“i’m just pushing you”

pushed me far too much and the limit has been passed

“do you want me to tell your dad?”

heavens no, i couldn’t even imagine the yelling or possibly hitting that would end up happening behind my perfect family doors

“suicidal thoughts?”

if i told you, you’d tell him.




yes.

just because you’re dating doesn’t mean you can’t ever just talk to me for a day

do you want us to take you back?

tell me honestly, do you?

i lay ill for a few days and this is what you do.


we don’t want you back

we never wanted you back


so stop acting like nothing happened.


like you didn’t just crush us like that.


*******.



leave.

i guess 8 years makes it easier to replace

alexander was it?

yes its me again.

ready to make some ******* **** themselves again


**** GET HIM OUT PLEASE

stop my cereal man

why can’t you stop talking about her?

both of you.


it’s none of your business.


she’s hurting.



and you’re spreading lies.

you’re replacing me with a girl you met last year

i wanna die

but you don’t.

so much for double suicide

i’m here too but whatever

can u bring a hoodie for me on wednesday? k thanks

stop looking at me when we clearly don’t want you back.

i’m ignoring you for a reason *******

our future plans were just like marriage.

I can finally call you mine.

But will you do the same?

datinf

you are

mhm.








i knew you never loved me anyway

your hangouts are just excuses to see your girlfriend and to make everyone else feel like a ****** third wheel

I love you?

the poems i write are merely a vent.

some lies, some truths.

you never know which one,

neither do i

i cant help you if you wont let me help...

what am i doing with life

shivering
shaking


cold


its cold in my room.


i just want you to be here so i can hug you until i disappear

how much time until you realise how much i ******* love you