eat more.

the whole cycle is coming back to attack me

i thought i got rid of you

i thought i burned you

i thought you disappeared from my life

god i tried so hard to stop you but you keep coming back

reading your poems,

noticing how they connected with mine.

we really liked each other,

i just wasn't enough to keep you hanging on

so now our friendship is strained

im being pushed away

because

"im not replacing you, she was just there for me when you weren't."

i was there for you,

i guess you couldn't see that.

im sorry.

im not enough

our everything was really nothing.

it was a game you played to keep yourself entertained,

now my friendships are strained,

you haunt me with every **** thing you did,

my trust issues arose,

and now im a broken ******* whos name is toxic.

went through our old messages, our old memories and realised we had something that lasted for a month until you ****** everything over. i stayed with you for an additional 3 months and then you dumped me for being mad at SOMEONE ELSE. by the 2 month mark i realised you were ******* up my friendships too, did you want to ruin my life too?

*******.

she found out about my suicidal tendencies, do i lie to her?

12 x 12

"are you okay?"

"no."